Method How to jump

[CP3GH]

So... as I am on this forum I want to die... I ruined my life beyond reversible points... my fault that I didn't manage my depression well nor there was a magical solution to my issues.

I have been suicidal for years and fhere were times where I was happy I didn't do it but those times are over and long lost.

So, I was wondering how does it feel to jump? How does one take the leap?

I live in a high rise and every moment I could do it. I often think of my mom when I stand at the window. She loves me dearly but she also contributed to my depression.

I don't want to live to see my 31st bday in a few weeks.

I read on chat gpt that jumping from the 9th floor would lead to immediate unconsciousness and shock that would block the pain and that virtually there is no way to survive.

Any thoughts on how does the fall might feel or how to deal with the mind playing my mom's face when I stand at the window?


Thoughts, ideas, experiences are all welcome.

 

[unluckysadness]

Sorry life brought you here. Jumping was my first idea, but I don't have access to a reliable spot and to be honest, this method scares me. I guess people take benzos or alcohol before ? to be able to do it ? I don't know.

I hope you'll find peace whatever happens

 

[tannhausers]

I don't believe that jumping is painless. It's really scary. I think it's best to choose the option that's relatively guaranteed to be painless.

 

[CP3GH]

Sorry life brought you here. Jumping was my first idea, but I don't have access to a reliable spot and to be honest, this method scares me. I guess people take benzos or alcohol before ? to be able to do it ? I don't know.

I hope you'll find peace whatever happens

Thanks for the kind words...

I have around 30 pills of 0.5mg of clonazepan prescribed for insomnia. Would taking all of them help? I just cannot erase the face of my loving mom when I think of the jump.

Took one to see how I feel... but it makes me sleepy. Alcohol also makes me sleepy... sleepy but not dead.

I don't believe that jumping is painless. It's really scary. I think it's best to choose the option that's relatively guaranteed to be painless.

It scares me too... but I have no access to a painless method... and every method here seems to carry a certain pain. Jumping 9 floors seem to be my only option and from news and academic records, seem to be pretty reliable to do the job.

 

[Dinozauria]

According to lostallhope.com you should jump from 150ft above land and 250ft above water so please make sure wherever you jump from reaches that. Also look out for pedestrians or vehicles below before you jump

I haven't gone through with jumping yet so I can't tell you how exactly to work up the balls to jump. Some people drink alcohol (which isn't recommended since it can apparently lower the chances of death. To what degree I'm unsure). I've heard of counting one two three in your head and jumping on two to trick your brain. Some people also do better if they put little thought into it. My personal plan is to take an overdose of OTC medications right before I jump to give me ample motivation so I don't have to live through an unlethal overdose. I feel like I've also heard of people doing bungee jumping to desensitise themselves but I could've just imagined that up.

One thing to note with jumping is it is unpredictable. Those measurements above give good death rates, but you can still fail, and if you do you'll likely be disabled and traumatised for life. Not trying to scare you out of jumping, but take that into account as a risk for jumping before you decide to do it. Of course, it's a risk for most methods as well I'm pretty sure, but with jumping it's far less in your control

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

So... as I am on this forum I want to die... I ruined my life beyond reversible points... my fault that I didn't manage my depression well nor there was a magical solution to my issues.

I have been suicidal for years and fhere were times where I was happy I didn't do it but those times are over and long lost.

So, I was wondering how does it feel to jump? How does one take the leap?

I live in a high rise and every moment I could do it. I often think of my mom when I stand at the window. She loves me dearly but she also contributed to my depression.

I don't want to live to see my 31st bday in a few weeks.

I read on chat gpt that jumping from the 9th floor would lead to immediate unconsciousness and shock that would block the pain and that virtually there is no way to survive.

Any thoughts on how does the fall might feel or how to deal with the mind playing my mom's face when I stand at the window?


Thoughts, ideas, experiences are all welcome.

Seeing your mom's face is fate telling you not to do it. Like you said, she loves you dearly. She may not have been the best, but you obviously love her dearly as well. It would hurt her tremendously if you did it and she'd have to live with that pain for the rest of her life.

 

[Front Back]

Thanks for the kind words...

I have around 30 pills of 0.5mg of clonazepan prescribed for insomnia. Would taking all of them help? I just cannot erase the face of my loving mom when I think of the jump.

Took one to see how I feel... but it makes me sleepy. Alcohol also makes me sleepy... sleepy but not dead.


It scares me too... but I have no access to a painless method... and every method here seems to carry a certain pain. Jumping 9 floors seem to be my only option and from news and academic records, seem to be pretty reliable to do the job.

I hope you can reverse this thought for your mother.

Spoiler: What I would do

First I'll scout the place and see if there's lot of passerby. If there's not much of them I'll get to a dangerous small ledge if any or just sit at the ledge and took possibly alcohol to disrupt motor control and either sit at a very compromising position or tip toe near the edge (hence no passerby) the alcohol will tip you over and I'll take it as a sign to continue living if I fall to the wrong side. Not a foolproof plan.

I do really hope for you to continue living but yours is yours and hopefully you find peace.