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beyonddone

tried&failed fighting against corrupt family court
Sep 9, 2024
44
I understand you. I at first thought about quitea few but ended up at partial hanging but now i lean much more towards full hanging nad now i have the problem that my door might not be strogn enough to hold it.
I am leaning to do the same way but im struggling with finding somewhere that i am certain will hold and im not having any luck… i looked into the inert gas and that way is what i kinda wanna do but i dont think i have enough money for all of it… over $500 then another $200+ for night at a hotel plus to get the gas i have to wait til next friday for the shipping, idk what to do
Who thought it would be so hard to ctb
 
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isthisthingon

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May 16, 2026
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I am leaning to do the same way but im struggling with finding somewhere that i am certain will hold and im not having any luck… i looked into the inert gas and that way is what i kinda wanna do but i dont think i have enough money for all of it… over $500 then another $200+ for night at a hotel plus to get the gas i have to wait til next friday for the shipping, idk what to do
Who thought it would be so hard to ctb
How would you get the cylinder tank into a hotel? Aren't they fairly large?
 
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beyonddone

tried&failed fighting against corrupt family court
Sep 9, 2024
44
How would you get the cylinder tank into a hotel? Aren't they fairly large?
Only need the smaller 40c one which fits in a bag/travelbag/suitcase.. & most places near me are contactless checkin but that doesn't even matter cuz like i said its way to much plus its a long wait to even get it
 
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jamesngggg

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Mar 17, 2026
8
FSH
When hanging with a double-braid rope (diameter: 50 mm), the rope shifts from 1 to 2, over the edge of the Adam's apple. Is it a problem? Or do I have to tighten it more so it doesn't shift?
Also, do the window handles, the ledge under the window and the stool cause problems when the SI kicks in? I can try finding hanging spots in some nearby abandoned buildings / contruction site but I have to wear suits that cover all parts of the body to protect against mosquitos (would be suspicious if got caught) and there are lots of dogs here.
Next, on some suicide videos, I can see the knot being above the head or in the front of the neck. Is it different from placing the knot in the back?
And the last thing is how do you test if the rope can withstand the convulsions? I couldn't stand with one or both legs directly on the rope.
 

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hdead

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Jun 2, 2026
60
Alright, I've been reading up almost every page on this thread and tested for myself. This must work for anybody as I'm 6"1 and have a muscular neck (rode motorcycles and had a rather active lifestyle)

My tips (for partial):

1. Anchor point, anchor point, anchor point.
I see too many people trying to hang themselves off stuff that will clearly not hold their weight. Test your anchorpoint before you risk braindamage. It should hold your entire bodyweight, and a bit more. Take into account you will be convulsing so that will tug on the anchor. The stories I read here are people waking up on the floor. I.e. the anchor held their static weight but gave way when they started convulsing.

2. Knots. Knots. Knots.
Knots are easy to tie. Use a simple slipknot, or better yet tie a loop in one end of the rope with a double hitch and pull the other end through to create a sliding noose. Don't use the hangmans knot, also don't tie a slipknot with more than 2 passes because friction.

3. Rope diameter and strength
Don't skimp on a rope. Static rope 10mm is GREAT. Yes, it's synthetic and braided so it will hurt a little bit. But it will 100% not break and it closes everything off evenly and effectively. I'd advise against going on shibari. bdsm, neckties, bathrobe belts or leather belts. Too weak, too much surface area. 10mm rope has a small surface area (around 2mm) and it is super effective. I am one of the lucky ones that has 100's of metres of this rope due to previous climbing hobbies. Sucks that I never really enjoyed any of it and now using it for a purpose that is opposite to safety.

4.. Location on the neck
For PSH, use the location UNDER the adams apple. I've tested all the locations. Above seems to hit the jugular effectively making you explode, you can't afford to swallow and it takes way longer for the sleepiness to kick in. On top of the apple hurts like a BSH. Under the apple and you get to breathe (labored) and swallow (not advised)

Keep your mind clear. Don't be eating or drinking (maybe just alcohol for the courage) before and take a few deep breaths before your attempt. Tighten it quick and lean into it. You'll pass out really fast. Although, if you've ever planked you know that seconds pass a lot slower in situations like this. Writing on a forum '10 seconds and you're out!' might seem fast, but when youŕe actually in the situation 10 seconds feel like a minute.

I tested every method I've come across here and this one is by far the most effective. Even with my neck muscles, it's so fast and it doesn't take hulk-type strength or massive amounts of pressure. Just a good fast tug. I haven't gone to the point of passing out, but around 3 seconds I heard a crazy growl and at 5 seconds I started to go limp. Because I was simply holding pressure with my own hand I let go. At that point I got the light euphoric feeling that people talk about. However, the experience itsself does not feel euphoric at all to me. You are indeed trying to die. Something you haven't done ever before, and likely don't really want to be doing either. You're trying to escape your life. If you can convince yourself you want to die, good on you. The rope burn around the neck is next to none. If you can't handle this pain you've probably never stubbed your toe on some furniture. Stubbing that toe hurts a LOT more than the amount of pain the rope causes.

I'm too much of a b*tch to go for FSH. I know that much. With this testing, that growl that I heard kinda got to me. I am taking it as a sign that I am simply not ready yet. However, when I am I'll be sure to drink up and pop some meds so that I can more easily black out. I'm sure that when the pain and anxiety become enough I'll be ready to CTB. Until then, I'll just keep trodding on in this pointless existence. CO method also is an option, but I'm less confident in its success when compared to PSH. I can only hope that my fireplace becomes faulty and I go by an oopsie. Can a man dream?
 
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hdead

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Jun 2, 2026
60
I've just tested a few more times, and I would like to add something to my previous post.

Creating a loop at the end of your rope and passing the other lead through it makes for the best, most slippery and tight noose you'd want. Also, snugging up the rope way up to the chin and placing the knot in the center of the back of your neck definitely brings about the same constriction as lower third of the neck.

Just my two cents. Now I just have to meditate, muster up the courage, become okay with death and go. I have no idea how long I'll take before I get there. I'll be reading until then.
 
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NeedToGoNow12

Member
Jun 9, 2026
7
Do people feel arbor knot is the best? I'm struggling tying it. It's hard to believe all the partial hangings you hear about used it but what do I know I guess
 
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neikos496

Member
May 9, 2026
8
I tried this several times and I didn't pass out even after a minute. It just hurt my throat and made it harder for me to breathe but unconsciousness didn't reach me.
 

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