How to gather the courage to ctb

[Ifonlysheknew]

I need more motivation
Intellectually I know it's best to end it, but I'm being a coward and this is just making it worse

Any ideas?

 

[Malice1]

Alcohol might help. Survival instinct is powerful trust me. The more you think about it the harder it becomes. You need to act quick and bumrush it. You may not be able to do this with certain methods however...

 

[Sabiwankenobi]

Hey, im from malaysia too female 21y/o. Im so tired of life. Everyday is a hell for me. Wanted to end this suffering soon. I really want to get to know you so we can discuss about the right, clean and painless method

 

[ctoan]

the most important is to prepare everything for your suicide method so once you the sufficient state of mind you can do it impulsive

 

[Schopenhauer]

If you don't have the proper motivation yet, don't try psyching yourself up to do it. Maybe life will improve and you will not need to ctb anymore, or it'll get worse, and you'll have intrinsic motivation.

But if you're scared of death itself, then I don't have very good advice... nearly everybody contemplating suicide goes through this. At some point you'll overcome it.

 

[worldexploder]

I don't think it's cowardly to be afraid. It does take a lot of motivation. While I'd have no problems doing it with Nembutal, the Tank, or a reliable shotgun - other methods are off the table. We have these shitty innate self preservation instincts that makes CTB more difficult. Couple that with a high panic response and a low tolerance for discomfort and you got yourself a recipe for failure.

 

[Jovaras]

I need more motivation
Intellectually I know it's best to end it, but I'm being a coward and this is just making it worse

Any ideas?

what exactly are you afraid of?

 

[Fucking loving it]

I am at my best when I am calm... at peace... I'm trying to hang on until my son is 18. When he's out of the house and doesn't have to rely on his fucked up in many ways dad.
Lol hang on....

 

[Deutschv2]

medicine that numb you like SSRIs and possibly benzodiazapines did the trick for me. However SSRI takes a long time to start working so idk if this can be helpful. very good advice is what ctoan says - make it so that you can do it on impulse, this is good way to bypass survival instinct. gl!!