How to convince my family to let me go.

[Utter_emptiness]

I want them to just allow me to kill myself. I don't understand how they're forcing me to stay in this life against my own will. It's ridiculous.
Do you think making them hate me and eventually disown me will make my suicide less painful for them?

 

[pedro3211]

I relate to not understanding why family wants you to live, I don't think making them disown you will make it any easier for them though.

 

[needtofindrightway]

I'm asking myself the same questions. My parents are very old since they had me in their fifties (dad) / fourties (mom). My dad's in his seventies right now and I am definitely going to kill myself once he dies, if not earlier.

I have also wondered if making my parents hate me wouldn't make it easier for all of us. But how? I am already a loser, financial burden, neet, wasted potential and yet they say they love me. For them to hate me I would probably need to do something criminal, and that's against my ethics.

 

[whywere]

It is all over this site, as far as my "parents" NEVER EVER wanting me and the day after I turned 18, I was raised on a working dairy farm, they drove me to our local town and dropped me off on a street curb with NO money, food, shelter, job, NOTHING. Never heard from them again, 100% their choice.

When I was growing up, my two siblings always had presents under the Christmas tree and I always had one wrapped box. In the box was a note that I was feed and housed for the year and that was my Christmas present.

When they died, my younger sister got a hobby farm and cash, my older brother got 8 million (USD) and I got ZERO.

Sorry, but when I read about someone who would love it if their parents hated them, it REALLY hurts me, as folks do NOT, in general, have no idea what it is like to have a hollow hole in oneself knowing that a person was never wanted and was treated as a common criminal.

Neither of my siblings have ever had anything to do with me, as my "parents" had poisoned their minds, so ZERO family since I was born and I am 70 now.

I guess the old saying: "be careful what you wish for" might have some meaning in this thread.

Walter

 

[SASU-KE]

I want them to just allow me to kill myself. I don't understand how they're forcing me to stay in this life against my own will. It's ridiculous.
Do you think making them hate me and eventually disown me will make my suicide less painful for them?

I'm asking myself the same questions. My parents are very old since they had me in their fifties (dad) / fourties (mom). My dad's in his seventies right now and I am definitely going to kill myself once he dies, if not earlier.

I have also wondered if making my parents hate me wouldn't make it easier for all of us. But how? I am already a loser, financial burden, neet, wasted potential and yet they say they love me. For them to hate me I would probably need to do something criminal, and that's against my ethics.

Please don't do that to your parents. If they love you, they're not bad parents. They don't deserve that. It will be a slow and painful process,it's really cruel.

 

[Bitter Almonds]

It is all over this site, as far as my "parents" NEVER EVER wanting me and the day after I turned 18, I was raised on a working dairy farm, they drove me to our local town and dropped me off on a street curb with NO money, food, shelter, job, NOTHING. Never heard from them again, 100% their choice.

When I was growing up, my two siblings always had presents under the Christmas tree and I always had one wrapped box. In the box was a note that I was feed and housed for the year and that was my Christmas present.

When they died, my younger sister got a hobby farm and cash, my older brother got 8 million (USD) and I got ZERO.

Sorry, but when I read about someone who would love it if their parents hated them, it REALLY hurts me, as folks do NOT, in general, have no idea what it is like to have a hollow hole in oneself knowing that a person was never wanted and was treated as a common criminal.

Neither of my siblings have ever had anything to do with me, as my "parents" had poisoned their minds, so ZERO family since I was born and I am 70 now.

I guess the old saying: "be careful what you wish for" might have some meaning in this thread.

Walter

I know i have no place to speak - I just discovered a whole branch of my family tree I didn't know. maybe enough time has passed that your siblings might be able to break free of your parent's conditioning and be willing to start a relationship, if that's what you want.

 

[CarbonBased]

I think this would make them more upset. They might think that you acted the way you did because of a mental illness and they turned you down instead of helping you through it. They will likely blame themselves for what happened

 

[EndlessRage]

I want them to just allow me to kill myself. I don't understand how they're forcing me to stay in this life against my own will. It's ridiculous.
Do you think making them hate me and eventually disown me will make my suicide less painful for them?

You can't, they will never allow you to do something like that. It is up to you, your life is in your hands.

 

[v4r0]

I want them to just allow me to kill myself. I don't understand how they're forcing me to stay in this life against my own will. It's ridiculous.
Do you think making them hate me and eventually disown me will make my suicide less painful for them?

Do they have total knowledge of how you feel and where those feelings come from? I mean, uncomfortable as fuck I know, but if suicide looks like the option for you already and it looks like you care about how they feel so I'd say try to run through every option with them with honesty. I mean, you can always ctb later why not try all the shit you can think of. I just feel like the "lying " method will leave you disatisfied even if it seems " easier"

 

[Rick&Morty1]

I want them to just allow me to kill myself. I don't understand how they're forcing me to stay in this life against my own will. It's ridiculous.
Do you think making them hate me and eventually disown me will make my suicide less painful for them?

Why do you wanna kill yourself still hasn't your family accepted your atheism already?!

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

What do you mean by allow? And how can they be forcing you to live? And why do they even know you want to CTB in the first place?

 

[Utter_emptiness]

Do they have total knowledge of how you feel and where those feelings come from? I mean, uncomfortable as fuck I know, but if suicide looks like the option for you already and it looks like you care about how they feel so I'd say try to run through every option with them with honesty. I mean, you can always ctb later why not try all the shit you can think of. I just feel like the "lying " method will leave you disatisfied even if it seems " easier"

No, I don't like to be vulnerable with them each time I get suicidal. They'll likely say it's the fact that I am not religious that's making me feel this way and I'm so tired of hearing this. It's so ignorant.

Why do you wanna kill yourself still hasn't your family accepted your atheism already?!

No it's just that I'm lonely, there is no one, no help, no qualified psychologists in my area, no proper treatment for my adhd, how draining university is, and how I'm failing all my classes. this whole life is not for me tbh.

What do you mean by allow? And how can they be forcing you to live? And why do they even know you want to CTB in the first place?

ive begged my brother and mother before to just let me go. To let me commit suicide and for them to realize how that decision will free me and grant me so much inner peace.