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Freebandzgang

Freebandzgang

Cant believe that we made it this far
Mar 17, 2025
119
I have been feeling so bad and suffering so bad for so long but i cant accept that this is my life now. It is my fate i guess. I am struggling every day because I expect to get better but I never get better. I dont know what to do.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
Honestly, think you're better asking this in the "Recovery" forum.
 
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Freebandzgang

Freebandzgang

Cant believe that we made it this far
Mar 17, 2025
119
Honestly, think you're better asking this in the "Recovery" forum.
I dont want to get better. I want to ctb, Its just i subconsciously expect the suffering to stop. when i know the only way out is ctb.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
I dont want to get better. I want to ctb, Its just i subconsciously expect the suffering to stop. when i know the only way out is ctb.
But, you're asking how to accept life, which means go on living, at least to me.
 
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relapse

relapse

Member
Mar 8, 2025
69
The same shit's been happening to me. Sucks to never be able to know if the improvement I'm waiting for is coming or not. I get frustrated if I can't get better, and get frustrated when I can because that means I don't have to ctb. no clue
 
DarknessAtNoon

DarknessAtNoon

Student
Apr 24, 2022
111
I have been feeling so bad and suffering so bad for so long but i cant accept that this is my life now. It is my fate i guess. I am struggling every day because I expect to get better but I never get better. I dont know what to do.
Breath meditation really does work. The difficulty is actually getting yourself to do it regularly when you feel like shit.
 
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