How suicidal do you consider yourself at the moment as a percentage?

[V01Death]

I would say approximately 63%, right now. I have already set terms and exact secret place and even method for my suicide, and my terms as simple as they may be they are.

1. When I will be homeless.
2. When I will live in complete poverty.
3. When I will completely lose my freedom and independence or/and my autonomy (No psych wards and prisons).
4. When I will see that there is completely no hope for this world, society and myself in it.

And well to explain about term 4. I egregiously lose hope for this world if I see and/or experience.

1. corruption(Of all kinds especially Nepotism)
2. mobbing(bullying),
3. Intentional incompetence.
4. Coercion.
5. Manipulation.
6. Exploitation.
7. Being in any group.
8. Being hurried.

And I gain some slivers of hope when I.

1. Experience Freedom and autonomy (No capitalism and capitalistic work isn't freedom it's slave labor with some bureaucratic gymnastics).
2. Experience Simple respect
3. When I create my projects (As a software engineer) without pure profit motives just sheer respect for my profession which gave me hope in troubling childhood.
4. When I am alone with myself and my mind.
5. When no one coerces me to do things their way unless it is an truly "best" solution.

 

[Placo]

At the moment I think I'm around 33%, I must say that the situation is improving a little with the new antidepressant.

 

[alltoomuch2]

Right this minute I'm 50% but I get such rapid major mood swings it could be 90-100% at any time. Never lower than 30% though.

 

[Sethy]

75% atm, still lil hope but i dont think i can make it
75% atm, still lil hope but i dont think i can make it

 

[RosebyAnyName]

70%. I fluctuate between 10%, when I'm able to completely delude myself, and 80ish% when I actually try to think about anything objectively.

 

[dinosavr]

I think I'm at 80% and we're going higher baby

 

[shaddix]

let's give it a 90%. Even though I can't do anything about it yet.