I gotta say, I think I'm less than a 1! It's so trippy. How life can turn around. Medication/medicine can help SO much. Sometimes our brains/minds just get stuck or parts of it just get fucking turned off. That's how it felt for me. Damn.
But I gotta admit. I never truly hated life. In spite of all the crazy, demoralizing, maddening shit I've experienced, I still acknowledged there were SO many beautiful things in this world. So many kind, compassionate people in this world. Sometimes, possibly, even to a fault.
I feel like so many people on this site are so stubbornly stuck on their negative viewpoints of life. It's just impossible to change their minds. No matter how much you try to persuade them, they'll fight back just as hard to cling onto their beliefs. Is crazy. Maybe they're too stuck in the past and are afraid of getting their hopes up again...just to have them let down? I know that feeling. Almost like you're being taunted. To be honest, I still feel that way sometimes. But I have faith life/the universe doesn't work like that. Life doesn't always give you what you want...but maybe it gives you what you need? To like, grow and shit? And as for people being stuck in the past/dealing with real major assholes/bad times, why allow punishing yourself? Let the past go. And from a different point of view, why let those assholes "win?" Wouldn't you like to prove them wrong? And when something REALLY good comes along, when you look back, those "bad things" will just look detours in the long run.
Anyway, it's really amazing what medicine/medication can do for people who WANT to get better and can still see the beauty in life and are willing to give life another chance. I think this applies to more people than most people think. Sadly, some of these people might have to find this out the hard way. It's sad
