How old were you guys when you first felt wanting to die?

[BecomingTired]

I don't mean a random thought of wanting to die or wanting to suicide without fully comprehending it, but when you first genuinely wanted to attempt suicide while fully understanding how unnerving death could be. Personally, my first thought of death was around 10 due to divorced parent and was stuck with an abusive mother, bullying, having to constantly move after the divorce without being able to make friends due to how poor we were(had to move council houses whenever they told us to), etc; but I only fully understood, or atleast understood to a good extent, of what it really meant to kill myself around the time I was 13.

 

[seventhheaven33]

11 maybe. im 21 now.

 

[ms-lovely]

13 i think, for my first attempt i was 16, for my second i was 24. obviously failed on both, Im currently 30 and ill be trying with SN. Hoping to finally succeed this time.

 

[LJ85]

9. First attempt at 13.

 

[wljourney]

11 - first suicidal ideations
19 or 20 - first attempt
Then 10 years of a fairly happy life
30 - second attempt and hospitalization
35-43 Many more attempts

Nearly 50 - final (hopefully successful) attempt this weekend

 

[AnAnonymousCrow]

6.

 

[Gone soon]

13, after people realised I'm gay and started bullying me. One year later I had my first suicide attempt

 

[divinemistress36]

13 damn puberty

 

[Why am i still here]

8

 

[b1cycle]

Teenager maybe? It was more like I couldn't imagine myself living more than a few years. And as I got older the time that I can imagine myself still alive has shortened to the point where it is at times a few days.

 

[InigoDeux40]

11, from then on it just have gotten worse.

 

[msesis]

Now. :) 24.

Depression for years before. But never thought I'd even consider suicide. Lots of impulsive "shoot me" or "I want to die"s, but I always knew it wasn't for real. But it's different now

 

[grungy自殺]

I don't remember the exact time when i first thought of it, but i was like around 5 to 8 years old.

It was sorta me wanting to die but mainly it was self harm through cutting my either my neck or abdomen (although i was nearly close but didn't go far to leave marks)

 

[Darkover]

18 years old i first became suicidal

 

[nymb]

15

 

[Spiritual survivor]

24

 

[indefinitesleep2]

14 kinda but looking back i wasnt really truly suicidal, just an unhappy kid. If i could return to that place now i would in a heartbeat.

 

[Forever Sleep]

10.

 

[MiaBhai]

22; now I am 24 and these thoughts are coming again.

 

[redeeming_butterfly]

I'm not sure. My memory is rather poor. I think I was 15 or 16, I'm 36 now.

 

[DarknetAnon]

Chronically suicidal since 17, but still have hope to recover.

 

[ADBoy777]

What a screwed world we live in. Lots of under 10 comments. Life can be so tough and harsh sometimes

Anyway in my case I was around 17-18

 

[lost_ange2211]

I think early teen years it started for me.
Lasted for a few years then I magically recovered. And with 20 it started again and never really ended.

 

[lollblanca]

17

 

[bandoscii]

At 11. I think it was mostly to being isolated socially and physically not being able to talk to other people, moving to another place without anyone, my mom being extremely busy and my dad not paying attention to me at all. I constantly thought about how someone would finally think about me or notice me.

 

[demitriusmigsysvotf]

At 12? My father died at that age. Then everything just started to get worse and worse and my wish to leave this world would become more stronger.

 

[bFre3]

I remember grabbing a knife and pointing it at myself at the age of 10. It's still vivid. I held it for a few seconds, but then eventually gave up thinking how painful it would be.

To be fair, I don't think I completely understood what it would even mean to kill myself at that age, it was just an act of impulse, and there was 0% chance that I would've actually gone through with it.

So I wouldn't exactly say there was an exact moment, or age in my life I turned suicidal. Things just became worse and worse until one day I realised I genuinely wanted to not exist anymore.

 

[m1ll1pede]

9. I scratched myself with a safety pin and tried to choke myself with a jump rope. I was very neglected as a kid

 

[ScC]

15. First attempt was at 17. 4 attempts since then, 5 total

 

[norkz]

11 or 12