How often do you find yourself thinking about CTB'ing

[Sigh_Sigh_Sigh]

I'm thinking about CTB'ing around 80% of the time I'm awake.

 

[MadAna]

more or less every day since i was 8... i think people should accept these thoughts. who tf in their right mind would like a relative or a friend to stay in this world just because other way theyll be sad. its egoistic. dont they think about the other person being "sad" and living a miserabe life? "better THEY being sad that me", i guess these are their thoughts...

 

[ppoyyx]

Mmh i would say minimum once every 3 days usually, but i mostly do it without even realising it. Those past week i've been doing cbt in all my dreams every nights tho

 

[SpiderLink]

I'm thinking about CTB'ing around 80% of the time I'm awake.

Everyday, I don't keep track but it's quite a lot. Especially when I'm in a bad state, those suicidal thoughts go off the roof

 

[StolenLife]

Every damn day.

 

[GasMonkey]

24/7

 

[silent star]

Everyday, 90% of the time it's the first thing I think of in the morning. I honestly don't think it ever leaves my thoughts

 

[iLikeFrogs]

For the most of the time when I'm awake. It just haunts me

 

[FuneralCry]

All the time, to me it feels like the logical response to having awareness that existing is nothing more than an unnecessary harm. Existing certainly is something so dreadful and unappealing to me, the fact that continuing to exist means to risk ending up in a situation of even worse suffering at any moment means that suicide will always be self care to me. This world is hell and we are only destined to suffer and lose everything so of course I'm always wishing to not exist, I see no value in delaying the inevitable. Suicide solves all problems, I see so much beauty in the thought of eternal nothingness where this existence won't even be a distant memory.

 

[SilentSadness]

Whenever I don't have more pressing problems to deal with, after all even thinking about suicide is a luxury in this world.

 

[Unknown21]

all the time.

 

[TAW122]

Almost all the time, and more so whenever I run into inconvenience and difficulties. I oftenly think that "Damn if only voluntary euthanasia was legal or accessible..." and "fuck those pro-life bastards keeping us alive" or something along those lines...

 

[outrider567]

All The Time

 

[gardenofaphrodite]

I've always had bouts of suicidal ideation & just general thoughts of being/wanting to be dead. Lately though it's every moment of every day all day. All I can think about is giving up & ctbing. I'm just so drained & tired of trying to fix my life, because every step I take, shit manages to get worse somehow.

 

[Lamentice]

Every day & every part of the day.

 

[Already Gone now]

I've always had bouts of suicidal ideation & just general thoughts of being/wanting to be dead. Lately though it's every moment of every day all day. All I can think about is giving up & ctbing. I'm just so drained & tired of trying to fix my life, because every step I take, shit manages to get worse somehow.

I can associate/feel this way most of the time

 

[Das Nichts]

Since I'm approaching my window multiple times a day.

 

[unnormal9]

Obviously every goddamn day for the past decade now.

 

[nightshade00]

Not 24/7, but definitely every day. Even on the 'good' days.

 

[rorowanttogetout👍🏽]

Every single day the soon i open my eyes

 

[UsagiDrop]

At least twice a day. Once for sure when I wake up, and then a million times over when I go to this job I'm starting to despise. Even right now I've been laying in bed for like the past four hours just thinking about ctb because I have to go to work in the next two. Thankfully it's not 24/7 at the moment but I think I'm reaching that point again.

 

[AutoTap]

Whenever my I relapse and my anxiety gets worse then normal. Sometimes just randomly. Anxiety fuxking sucks.

 

[cherrysquick]

at least once a day, on bad days i spend most of my time daydreaming about how and when i'm gonna do it. lately i've been thinking about it during very nice moments too, ex. "this is the last time i'll see x before i cbt" "i hope my friends remember this moment after i'm gone" etc etc

 

[The_End_Is_Comfort]

85% of the time. When I'm not I'm usually either focused at work or distracted with some dumb shit I'm watching or doing.

 

[murmur]

nearly every one of my thoughts either begins or concludes with me desiring the existing and future pains to stop, I barely find solace in the fact that I may have some moments of relief from this relentless array of unwanted consequences being alive, I think it all comes off as indifference rather than suffering like someone might think of a person constantly wanting to die, I find it hard to take my own nuances seriously, and if I do, I laugh at myself with frustration like I'm being retarded humoring this need that needn't be, godammit I hate being a thing with the ability to construct any fucking thoughts at all, can I switch places with a jellyfish pleeaase

 

[hag]

Almost all the time

 

[laylaN]

i try not to think about it much to be honest, i'm paranoid that i'll accidentally let something slip. it's usually the only thing on my mind when i'm alone, though, even on good days. one of my friends has also taken to saying "i'm gonna kms" as a shorthand for "something mildly inconvenient happened to me" which sets my suicidal thoughts off too (and it's annoying as hell)

 

[ghost44]

every day...all the time.

 

[LostinCyberspace]

My adrenaline rushes and I feel tempted whenever something stressful comes up. I also think about it a lot before I go to sleep. I think it would be nice to just go to bed one night and never wake up.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

My adrenaline rushes and I feel tempted whenever something stressful comes up. I also think about it a lot before I go to sleep. I think it would be nice to just go to bed one night and never wake up.

Agreed.