How much does the current state of society have to do with your desire to CTB?

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If it's a significant amount, please describe what the main aspects are.

 

[3dogsinatrenchcoat]

More than 50%
The current job market is ass, economy Is ass!!!
Everything feels hopeless, a stable job would help a lot.
In the other hand, I've been suicidal since I was a kid; when I was on medication and had psychiatric help things felt more peaceful. Now, I can't afford it, so yeah

 

[Off_Switch]

More than 50%
The current job market is ass, economy Is ass!!!
Everything feels hopeless, a stable job would help a lot.
In the other hand, I've been suicidal since I was a kid; when I was on medication and had psychiatric help things felt more peaceful. Now, I can't afford it, so yeah

I sympathize with you immensely. Are you in the states? Do you have health insurance?

 

[notreallybored]

ב''ה,

I'll be "almost 100%" even if it's got to be at least 50% personal, but society ain't coming back from everything in the past decade or more and the current state of it just rubs in that everything is misery with a price tag hung on it.

 

[Off_Switch]

ב''ה,

I'll be "almost 100%" even if it's got to be at least 50% personal, but society ain't coming back from everything in the past decade or more and the current state of it just rubs in that everything is misery with a price tag hung on it.

It's definitely just going to keep getting worse.

 

[lpdsvm]

Many might say I must deserve a place in society in all spheres.
But there's a rhetorical question: Why do I need to do anything hoping I might get a fraction of a tiny fraction of peace and moderate prosperity when I can just take raw SN and/or hang myself without proving anything to anyone and be gone in 30 sec - 15 min depending on the method. Why shouldn't it be the other way around. I don't need anything from anyone.
I don't need all these silly things. Toxic BS.

 

[Off_Switch]

Many might say I must deserve a place in society in all spheres.
But there's a rhetorical question: Why do I need to do anything hoping I might get a fraction of a tiny fraction of peace and moderate prosperity when I can just take raw SN and/or hang myself without proving anything to anyone and be gone in 30 sec - 15 min depending on the method. Why shouldn't it be the other way around. I don't need anything from anyone.
I don't need all these silly things. Toxic BS.

Thank god there's a way out from all of this.

 

[3dogsinatrenchcoat]

I sympathize with you immensely. Are you in the states? Do you have health insurance?

I'm outside but thank you for asking! what about you, what would your percentage be?

 

[SoulCage]

I picked almost 100%, because I believe that society and the competition for jobs, housing, love, health care, basically anything is creating my physical problems and my psychological suffering (anxiety, depression).

In my case, I wouldn't have those issues. Even problems that originate from my childhood experiences - they are also because my parents were facing the same fucking issues.

One more thing about the word "current". I believe it has always been shit unless you were born in a privileged class or higher caste. The same as today. Most "rich people" (there are exceptions, no doubt, more than before 1900) had some kind of support system (money from parents, others helping in the background). If you don't have it then you have to play by the rules of society. And that means: be valuable, be productive, be selfish, cause pain to other people - exploit them in order to make a better life for yourself. Destroy the planet, by exhausting resources and destroy eco-systems in the process. Make money from people who are suffering.
There is so much and I am too tired to keep on writing more examples...

 

[hurts2b]

A lot. Although I often wonder how much of it is the world and how much of it is how a react to the world. Others seem to function fine under poor conditions. I just. Function less well. I guess. But there's no question that if we live in an easier, more just society, I would feel far less desire to end myself.

 

[iguazo falls]

im not happy about it but i would feel suicidal if i was born elsewhere, born 10 years ago, or 250 years ago

 

[gomikasu]

The world at large has almost no impact on my desire to ctb. I've got a job, a decent amount in savings and am able to remote work from japan, but I still have no desire to keep living. I get that the grass is always greener, but it feels really hopeless when there's almost nothing wrong in my life other than myself. Thankfully I've got ctb plans for this weekend so hopefully I don't turn myself into a vegetable.

 

[darksouls]

almost 100%
because society is a vile abomination

 

[memo]

I was suicidal well before I had a grasp on what society was like, but living in the US and slowly watching my country self implode in favor of pedophiles over the last decade has certainly done me no favors

 

[oilsaniok]

I live in Indonesia, it's tough to live

 

[difficvltmachineryy]

So. Much. I never wanted to live in a world so scary and evil. It's better for me to not exist at all, i feel im too sweet and fragile

 

[Off_Switch]

I'm outside but thank you for asking! what about you, what would your percentage be?

I'm at least 90%. I hate seeing the worst people live the best lives.

I picked almost 100%, because I believe that society and the competition for jobs, housing, love, health care, basically anything is creating my physical problems and my psychological suffering (anxiety, depression).

In my case, I wouldn't have those issues. Even problems that originate from my childhood experiences - they are also because my parents were facing the same fucking issues.

One more thing about the word "current". I believe it has always been shit unless you were born in a privileged class or higher caste. The same as today. Most "rich people" (there are exceptions, no doubt, more than before 1900) had some kind of support system (money from parents, others helping in the background). If you don't have it then you have to play by the rules of society. And that means: be valuable, be productive, be selfish, cause pain to other people - exploit them in order to make a better life for yourself. Destroy the planet, by exhausting resources and destroy eco-systems in the process. Make money from people who are suffering.
There is so much and I am too tired to keep on writing more examples...

I say current, because I was alive during 80s. It was such an awesome time period.

 

[Lemelonade]

I think the atrocities we're seeing right now (the genocides, the wars, the Epstein files, ...) have always been there. People have always been this cruel but this is the first time we're seeing this much cruelty at once on a global level.

I thought people would be much more outraged by this. I thought more people actually cared about freedom and equal rights, democracy and justice. The fact that leaders like Trump and Netanyahu are still in power and enough people still support them and their actions - makes me want to leave here. I really thought we were better people. I'm not ashamed to admit this. I thought that most of us had learned from history.

I just keep thinking that I don't want to be a human anymore.

 

[Off_Switch]

I think the atrocities we're seeing right now (the genocides, the wars, the Epstein files, ...) have always been there. People have always been this cruel but this is the first time we're seeing this much cruelty at once on a global level.

I thought people would be much more outraged by this. I thought more people actually cared about freedom and equal rights, democracy and justice. The fact that leaders like Trump and Netanyahu are still in power and enough people still support them and their actions - makes me want to leave here. I really thought we were better people. I'm not ashamed to admit this. I thought that most of us had learned from history.

I just keep thinking that I don't want to be a human anymore.

It seriously feels like a bad dream.

 

[kittypsst]

Spain so lol, lmao.

I was suicidal well before I had a grasp on what society was like, but living in the US and slowly watching my country self implode in favor of pedophiles over the last decade has certainly done me no favors

At least the US keeps tracks of crimes per race*, if it wasn't for criminals exploiting suicidal empathy... (* we spics have the highest rates of sexual abuse).

The hardest part is finally seeing that, for all the fucked up things in life, it's that my own people actively choose to maintain it. All the cover ups, all the nightmares, yet it still plays coy when someone wants out. No wonder our close ancestors at Carthage were into burning their young, 2000 years and no evolution to be seen.