Mort
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- Feb 15, 2019
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Hello as the title says now much do you hate your self ? Me i just despise my self so much cant look in the mirror any more last time I did i ended up ripping the mirror off the wall.
I don't hate myself. I hate that I don't have the means to be the me I can be.I don't hate myself or someone. My depression was without that, perhaps it is atypically. Even my attempt to die wasn't relate with hate myself it was just suffering seemed unbearable. Maybe that is why I am quite quickly recovering. On the other hand - I feeling nothing, and absence hate myself is just a part of a huge scorched of my emotional universe.
Yes it was. Healing is aimed at reduce the suffering, that helped me to learn to live with my disappointment.I don't hate myself. I hate that I don't have the means to be the me I can be.
Wow... what a story . I didn't know u could get a DWI on a bicycle. I'm sorry to what has ever got u to this pointI hate myself enough to be on this website for the past 6 months seriously considering suicide. Seriously though, my self hatred is pretty high. I have just been diagnosed with BPD and had an epic manic phase about a year ago. slapped my cousin, went to my grandparents church and told someone that I feel that priest is raping kids, scared the shit out of my parents, lost my friends, got a DWI on a bicycle, went to the psych ward 3 times, and spend about 60 days in jail. Now I am back at home with extreme agoraphobia from having the police chase me down in my court (afraid to see neighbors.) Plus, I'm on probation for 2 years and can't leave the state, which I've been wanting to do for the past 10 years. Between the guilt and self hatred, I don't want to see anyone know and am crossed in between offing my crazy ass or moving to a third world country...
I'm leaving the country as well. Can you really buy heroin that easy there?!? Seems like a dream come trueYeah, the DWI on a bike is a real thing. I thought it was just a legend as well. The worst part about this is I have done it to myself.
Anyone want to move to Cambodia? This is my last resort before offing myself. I think being in a completely world different location might snap me out of this. You can teach English without a college degree making about $1000-1500 a month. Rent is around $150. Cost of living is cheap. Plus, I'm hoping to gain perspective on what struggling actually looks like. If living still is a burden, you can buy heroin at a pharmacy without a prescription and CTB relatively pain free.
Thank you for this. I couldn't have said it any better.I used to feel overwhelmed by a sense of alienation from the world. I used to feel ashamed and inadequate. Ashamed to even breath the air. This made me hate myself and my inability to be like everyone else who seemed well-adjusted and functioning.
That was then.
Now, I simply am. I have no feelings towards myself. I am a face among billions of other faces. A drop of water in the sea. I don't matter, and so I don't think about myself in terms of love or hate.
I'm leaving the country as well. Can you really buy heroin that easy there?!? Seems like a dream come true
Ive thought about doing the same thing except in Thailand.Yeah, the DWI on a bike is a real thing. I thought it was just a legend as well. The worst part about this is I have done it to myself.
Anyone want to move to Cambodia? This is my last resort before offing myself. I think being in a completely world different location might snap me out of this. You can teach English without a college degree making about $1000-1500 a month. Rent is around $150. Cost of living is cheap. Plus, I'm hoping to gain perspective on what struggling actually looks like. If living still is a burden, you can buy heroin at a pharmacy without a prescription and CTB relatively pain free.
Yeah, here's a reddit thread about it.
What country do you plan on leaving to?
Hello as the title says now much do you hate your self ? Me i just despise my self so much cant look in the mirror any more last time I did i ended up ripping the mirror off the wall.
I don't hate myself, I hate other people.
I dont hate myself, I hate that i lost so much time , and that finally I recovered, but im not good at nothing, so I am finding it hard to make a living