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A.C.Jay

New Member
Sep 10, 2022
1
10+ since I was 10 y/o of varying degrees of coherence and another 4 times since August. 1 in progress (refusing medical care for a disease)
 
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Ghostofthepast

Ghostofthepast

Student
Dec 31, 2022
178
Over the last year about 6 to 7 times over my whole life since I was 6 probably a good 50 or so times
 
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sick.faery

sick.faery

♡
Mar 18, 2021
295
a lot but never really went through with most of them to the end cos si. only did 3 real real attempts where i followed through to the end and could have died. they were all overdoses. two were xanax overdoses, the other one was painkillers + alcohol (tried to drink myself to death). puked pretty much everything out so survived..
 
ilovecats

ilovecats

Empty Husk
Feb 1, 2023
131
2 times. Got too scared to get the job done. Everything was prepared in both attempts but couldn't do it in the last moment.
 
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missingpeace

Arcanist
Feb 4, 2023
431
One half-hearted attempt at using the tourniqet method as directed from a book, was so disappointed it didn't work. Was going to try SN without antiemetics before accessing this website but didn't am glad now because alot more information has come to light after reading threads on this forum. Also toying with the idea of hanging. I hope my next attempt will be my last and I will be gone.
 
vultureilse

vultureilse

ready to go, just waiting for the right time!
Dec 31, 2022
144
technically i tried a few times but ive never had an actual proper attempt

there was a time when i was close to stabbing myself in the stomach and other time i was going to jump under a train but ended up backing out of both of these. recently i tried partial i think like 30 times but just couldnt get it to work so i gave up lmao
 
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wait-bus-stop

Member
Feb 5, 2023
90
One serious attempt was when I was a teenager. I was fully suspended and passed out. I woke up on the ground, and the noose had untied.
Since then, I have tested things over many years but made no serious attempt. But that will change. I don't want multiple attempts - just certainiyt it will work properly.
 
sheepgirl

sheepgirl

Student
Aug 11, 2018
119
More than 10, don't really count. Had many impulsive attempts as a teenager. I've had 4-5 serious attempts where I've come close and needed ICU care to stay alive/recover. Now I'm older I generally plan out my attempts, spent 6 months planning one a few years ago and came so close
 
FieldsofLavender

FieldsofLavender

how real is joy, anyway?...
Feb 7, 2023
124
4 times; one where I tried to slit my wrists, one jump, one where I almost slit my throat but was stopped in the process, and one where I downed two bottles of pills... All were excruciatingly painful, which is partially why I'm here... I want to find something painless, quiet, gentle; something I can do and then just fade away while I snuggle my plushies...
 
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