Discussion How many of you realize that life is simply not for you? Esp those who were not diagnosed with mental illness but still decided to commit suicide?

[vold3m0r†]

sometimes i wonder how many ppl have killed themselves or planning to, have simply decided to do so cuz life is not for them.
im not professionally diagnosed bcus i dont have the money lol, but i look around and realise that things will never inherently change. humanity has destroyed everything.
its unbelievable that people have to literally protest and risk their lives just to improve their situation, such as work conditions and basic human rights.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

I've never been diagnosed either. But I totally think I'm just not cut out for this life and this world. I don't belong here. No matter how hard I was trying to convince myself otherwise, I never succeeded once. My birth was the biggest mistake my mom's ever made in her life.

 

[Mr2005]

If you give a damn then life is for you otherwise you wouldn't

 

[Gl1tch3d G1rl]

Me! I have autism + unknown mentall illness(es). Nobody is quite able to point out what's wrong with me. My conditions are as mysterious as they can be. Been a failure from day 1, never fitted in at school, never made a whole lot of friends, I made horrible mistakes as an adult... I'm done, I'm done with life. I'm so fucking tired of life! I'm killing myself today!

 

[Midgardsorm]

When I was a kid I knew that there was something wrong with me.

It felt like something was missing from me. I spent a lot of my life learning about people, reading books on human behavior because I believed I couldn't understand people, but if I read about it I could find what was wrong with me and make friends, talk and be understood, even by my family who often seem completely different from me.

When I was 15 my parents were worried that I didn't have any friends at all and urged me to see a psychologist. After more than 15 years of therapy, I can say that no therapeutic intervention has worked, I still feel completely defective and incapable of a normal life.

So I could say that I began to feel that life was not for me very early on.

 

[BottomlessPit]

Living is a grotesque exercise in futility. All the struggle humans undergo in an effort to thrive could be avoided by nonexistence, where all striving is extinguished in an instant. Of course, most people don't recognize this, and that is why they develop grit and fortitude in an attempt to play this risky game of life.
Those who see the pointlessness of it all are not made for this world simply for the fact that securing even just a modicum of happiness requires inordinate amounts of effort, effort one is less inclined to put forth knowing that there is always a better alternative.

 

[blue_muse]

Life's not for me because I'm often damned if I do something and damned if I don't do something. I've been unlucky with a string of negligent healthcare professionals who've refused to address a serious condition, which affects how often I get out and about (can't say anymore than that folks), that's given way to another condition. The causality stares at them in the face, but I guess they've got to cover their backs at my expense.

On a deeper level, I just feel disillusioned with human nature and no longer have a desire to try and fit in. I'm past the artificiality of inspirational quotes, peoples' insincerity, politicians using COVID-19 to seize absolute power, family + friends' entitlement to try using me...I could go on but this isn't my thread.

For the record, I'm aware I'm not some sort of tortured genius even though the above gives that impression !

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, life is not for me. I have always struggled with living from the start, being alive has never felt right to me. The thing that is the problem to me is life itself, I simply dislike living. I wish I was never born.

I just see life as a pointless struggle and it is tedious. I dislike being conscious and aware of everything. This life holds unlimited potential for suffering and there is no limit as to how bad it can get. I just personally prefer the sound of non existence, I want rest and I want peace.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Diagnosis can be incorrect or bullshit. It's easy to get one and most psychs don't care that much to listen. They don't give a fuck about forever labeling you such and such even if you didn't say shit to get that label. That's not to say that some people really are such and such disorder or whatever...but even with the best meds if their reality is shitty the meds and therapy won't improve things. True it takes conserted efforts to improve or change things...but I think some people will never admit when things are hopeless (non-suicidal people).

I would think most people who commit experience situational anxiety...brought on by the harshness of their reality.

 

[NasiGoreng]

I was wrongly diagnosed with ADHD and autism when I were 8 and forced to take medications. In reality I were neglected and abused, and suffered from social anxiety. When I tried to adress my parents behavior, health care workers gave me a book about autism and said I did not understand feelings. I was also branded as bad due to my ADHD diagnosis, so diagnoses have only made things worse. Life is not for me due to that I have lost the fighter in me, and I dont want to keep going anymore.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I was wrongly diagnosed with ADHD and autism when I were 8 and forced to take medications. In reality I were neglected and abused, and suffered from social anxiety. When I tried to adress my parents behavior, health care workers gave me a book about autism and said I did not understand feelings. I was also branded as bad due to my ADHD diagnosis, so diagnoses have only made things worse. Life is not for me due to that I have lost the fighter in me, and I dont want to keep going anymore.

I feel for your situation. I know a young kid diagnosed autistic and I doubt he is. ADHD and autism are so overly diagnosed these days. It's fucking gross. So is bipolar. The anger that fuels false diagnosis can be palpable. Family can really align with drs who don't give two fucks about the kid/person. I'm so sorry to hear your parents were fucked up.

Psychs and healthcare people should be sued for their negligence. Parents too.

 

[Anonymous1997ES]

My current psychologist told me a diagnosis ís a double edged sword, while it can clear up some stuff, it might categorize a person and even make them feel bad about themselves... An Asperger misdiagnosis made my life at least 50 times more difficult...

I was born lower than average social skills that caused a lot of problems but, in the end, I guess I have to do what I can with the skills I have in hand, as much as I would like to reset my life/story, I have to stay, even if it's just for a few people.

 

[Cherry Crumpet]

I have depression/anxiety/adhd.. so this isn't really the thread for me but I wanted to say...

I've always felt like life is just .. too much. it's just too much. the smallest things overwhelm me to the point where I avoid them. Everything feels like I make it 100x more overcomplicated than it has to be.

 

[suisuiforum]

I can relate to a lot of what everyone said here already--"not diagnosed with anything but not cut out for life" describes me to a T. I've never so much as talked to a mental health professional, but it just seems like there is something inherently wrong with the way I appear to other people and how I view life no matter what I do. I'm not even sure if it's wholly because of my upbringing and other environmental factors, which may play a role, but I believe that my cynical, pessimistic outlook on life and inability to correctly interact with people according to certain societal rules will always be a part of me.

 

[MeltedJello]

Haven't been diagnosed here too. Ever since graduating high school thats when I decided and realized living was just pointless to me. I've finished the tutorial but the real world was too hard for me and nothing interested me anyways. I had no goals, dreams or plans to pursue anything because I felt that everything I was doing was for my parents and not for myself. There are more reasons, but the main reason I guess is that I'm just tired of trying now. I really couldn't think of anything I've wanted to do except end this useless life.