How many of us feel like if we just hang in there a little bit longer, maybe things will actually work out after all?

[Praying 4 a Miracle]

Like many people here, I'm suffering but I'm hanging in there, hoping that things will get better. Whether they will or not, it's really hard to say. But I figure the longer I stay on this side of the grass, the better my chances are of SOMETHING improving.

 

[Davey40210]

Well, to be honest, if you take me as an example things may turn around.. I was literally on the way out and then my gf just reached out and we have now seen each other twice in one week again.. trying not to get my hopes up but if we get back together it really seems like there is some kind of good force at work...

 

[Thisisme373]

I don't feel like this as my problems are permanent and very debilitating

 

[Reflection]

I'll hang either way so might as well push a little more, and while I don't believe in supernatural things or any sort of superstition, at times I do feel like there's some kind of forces influencing outcomes, as dumb as it sounds it kinda feels like those ghosts from FF7 remake.

 

[LunarLight]

That's what I did and eventually things started working out when I began being treated with amisulpride in low doses a few months ago. Now I'm feeling better. CTB is postponed till further notice.

 

[willitpass]

I've been hanging in there for my whole life. I don't believe any more amount of hanging in there will change things.

 

[Forever Sleep]

To be honest, I'm beyond that now. I don't expect things to get better. I'm not trying to make things better. I'm just hoping they don't get worse! I'm putting quite a bit of effort into ensuring they don't get worse in fact. Basically, I'm treading water as best I can. I'm actually appreciating not being so stressed about feeling the need to be successful in my future. I'm hoping I won't have one to worry about! I just need to keep it together long enough until my Dad goes and then, I'll at least feel free to make the decision to end it. So, it's not exactly hope keeping me here. It's obligation.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

I really, really try to think this way, but considering how longs things have been going on it is becoming harder and harder to simply hope for the best.

 

[James Sunderland]

Like many people here, I'm suffering but I'm hanging in there, hoping that things will get better. Whether they will or not, it's really hard to say. But I figure the longer I stay on this side of the grass, the better my chances are of SOMETHING improving.

Sometimes it feels like the hope that things might change is the only thing that keeps us hanging on.

It's hard to say what the future holds, but I think there's a kind of quiet strength in just sticking around to see what happens next. Maybe it's not about having a guarantee that things will get better, but being open to the chance that they might. Even if it's just one small thing at a time.

 

[Lady Laudanum]

Hanging in there? Do I spot a pun?

 

[hopelesswanderer]

If I can make it 5 yrs, then there's a sliver of hope. But I'd need to skip the next 5 years of suffering and hard work to get to the part where I have some hope.

 

[anopenwound]

I do pray God sometimes to help me get there as fast as I can. I try all the time. I just wanna know, when I'll go, that I've actually tried everything to make this work.

 

[Inexplicable]

I wish. My problems have been consistent for decades and it's just getting worse. I don't have anything to live for live with chronic anhedonia. Fuck psych meds, they've ruined my brain. Substances/drugs no longer work and that was the final straw

 

[ForgottenAgain]

I don't have much hope that things will be better. I'm still here because I know that if I ctb, I'll be indirectly murdering my boyfriend as I know he wouldn't be able to keep going. He still believes things may improve but for now we're just trying to keep things from getting worse.

I don't even want to have expectations of things improving, I'd rather not disappoint myself further.

 

[undecided]

Sometimes it feels like the hope that things might change is the only thing that keeps us hanging on.

It's hard to say what the future holds, but I think there's a kind of quiet strength in just sticking around to see what happens next. Maybe it's not about having a guarantee that things will get better, but being open to the chance that they might. Even if it's just one small thing at a time.

Why are you even on this site? You're obviously not suicidal! So why are you here?

 

[Leiot]

Why are you even on this site? You're obviously not suicidal! So why are you here?

Just because someone isn't suicidal at the moment doesn't me we don't keep thinking about it.

 

[undecided]

Just because someone isn't suicidal at the moment doesn't me we don't keep thinking about it.

My question wasn't aimed at you. You can't answer for him/her.

 

[kat6]

Me.
The bus will always be there. I think about it every day, but it can wait. I can try to make the most of this human experience in the meantime. Knowing that ctb is always an option, actually in a weird way helps me be present and improve my life. I can enjoy little things and not focus on the problems as much.

 

[EgoBrained]

Given the past couple of years, waiting will bring about no improvements. As long as my problems are met with inaction, like I always do, things will only get worse.

 

[bl00deater]

Like many people here, I'm suffering but I'm hanging in there, hoping that things will get better. Whether they will or not, it's really hard to say. But I figure the longer I stay on this side of the grass, the better my chances are of SOMETHING improving.

There's always hope for things to get better, but you have to push for it. That's the hard part :)

 

[kat6]

My question wasn't aimed at you. You can't answer for him/her.

Hi, you seem confused about what suicidal means.

Here's a definition from Cleveland clinic. Hope it helps you understand ideation vs attempts etc. Also, a reminder that this group is all about respecting people's choices and a choice to try to recover is a valid, good choice. It doesn't mean the person "doesn't belong here" or "isn't really suicidal".


From Cleveland clinic, with love lol:

"Suicidal ideation, or suicidal thoughts, is when you think about, consider or feel preoccupied with the idea of death and suicide. These thoughts may come and go or be extremely distracting. You might dwell on thoughts of suicide to the point where you make a plan to take your own life.

It's difficult to simply define what suicidal ideation looks like because it's different for each person. For example, you might fall asleep to the thought of not waking up in the morning. Or you might see a fast-moving vehicle and think about jumping out in front of it. As such, these thoughts can range in severity and intensity.

While having a thought isn't the same as physically attempting suicide, it can still impact your mental health and lead to suicidal behaviors or self-harm. "

 

[purplesky9]

Things just seem to get worse and worse for me. I've made to many bad decisions that have ruined my chances of being happy in the future. I have given up all hope of things getting better.

 

[Surai]

Im legit just playing the waiting game, lets see what happens and ill react accordingly you know what if it only gets worse even when I try I might just decide you know this might be the time

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Why are you even on this site? You're obviously not suicidal! So why are you here?

I'm not either. So?

That doesn't mean I or @James Sunderland don't struggle with life.

Have you noticed we've got a large recovery section? :)

 

[lament.]

That's what I'm doing too, hanging on *barely* at the hope that my condition can improve, but it seems more and more unlikely every day. I don't know what you suffer with but for me its a fucked up brain and a lot of chronic pain, and I'm currently seeking help for the pain but it's a lifelong issue with no cure so it's hard to not just end it all. Congrats (? lol) on making it this far though, I hope life improves for you.

 

[guineapiglover8503]

Like many people here, I'm suffering but I'm hanging in there, hoping that things will get better. Whether they will or not, it's really hard to say. But I figure the longer I stay on this side of the grass, the better my chances are of SOMETHING improving.

Same boat as you, OP <3

 

[Lady Laudanum]

Why are you even on this site? You're obviously not suicidal! So why are you here?

ok brb I'll undo all my progress with recovery and become suicidal again if that unrustles your jimmies lol

 

[rozeske]

I like to think behind almost every suicide there've been plenty hanging in there. As in years and years of it. What is the point of living if all you ever do is just hanging in there.

 

[lnlybnny]

Been hanging in there for over ten years. Can't say I regret it. I had really wonderful moments I'd have otherwise missed. But I can't just live hanging in there and not doing anything with my life besides wanting to die while waiting for glimpses of happiness. The reality is harsh.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Not me since my problems are with existence itself and the cruelty of existence. The only solution is death