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How many serious attempts have you made?

  • 0

    Votes: 50 39.1%
  • 1

    Votes: 23 18.0%
  • 2

    Votes: 18 14.1%
  • 3

    Votes: 11 8.6%
  • More

    Votes: 26 20.3%

  • Total voters
    128
hmnow

hmnow

Experienced
Jul 29, 2025
289
How many serious attempts have you made?

I have had two serious attempts. Third time lucky I hope
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,207
I haven't properly as after all I'm so cruelly denied the option to cease existing peacefully that is guaranteed and it's so terrifying to me how trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

All I want is to never suffer ever again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing to finally escape from all future dreadful suffering in this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake.
 
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fallingbehind

fallingbehind

Passed down like folk songs
Mar 22, 2025
152
Only one but all I did was fuck my ankle up. I was stupid and 11. I thought 20ft would actually work lol
 
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-nobodyknows-

-nobodyknows-

I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
798
I stopped counting
 
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SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Paragon
May 28, 2024
930
After 35 years of hell...I have made exactly zero attempts. Status symbol?
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,472
I am currently aware of 5.
 
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purplesky9

Specialist
Sep 21, 2024
301
Two. Hanging and an overdose.
 
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TealBunny

TealBunny

Member
Aug 11, 2025
22
Haven't had any 'official attempts' yet but scrolling through the methods on here is already making me feel more motivated and better even if I have to order some of the stuff at some point, sure its a little daunting but honestly im more upset by the fact I cant share how excited and relaxed im feeling over it with people im close to. Im genuinely looking foward to it but there's no way for me to express that
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Paragon
Mar 15, 2025
971
I'm embarrassed to say: zero so far
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,032
Two for me. One half-baked attempt with chloroform and another with partial.

I'm embarrassed to say: zero so far
Nothing embarrassing about this. It is not a contest. Attempt when you are ready and not before.
 
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Mytimeisending

Mytimeisending

theendisinevitable
Aug 10, 2025
76
2 that led me to be on a section 3 as a child, but now as an adult I haven't made any attempt as of yet.
 
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derekWest

Experienced
Feb 1, 2025
268
"Just" one using sn. I took meto then cancel my attempt before took the sn. It was 5 month ago.
I don't regret too much to cancel.
I need time to test if I can get a life that is satisfying for me.
I go swimming every day. Try see people. Walk, work a little....
If I don't have a pleasant life in these next year, I will make another ctb attempt.
 
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Eriktf

Elementalist
Jun 1, 2023
825
my count are at 12... but some was serous and could work some was less serous

im so fucking useless that i cant even kill my self
 
hmnow

hmnow

Experienced
Jul 29, 2025
289
my count are at 12... but some was serous and could work some was less serous

im so fucking useless that i cant even kill my self
What is your method. Or did you try different things
 
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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
Mar 9, 2024
1,677
Either 1 or 5 depending on what exactly you count as an "attempt"
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,512
Zero for me, because my method (the firearm) is literally and figuratively one shot and I cannot afford to make any mistakes or have any (unnecessary) risk of failure. I did practice dry-firing (squeezing the trigger without any ammo which results in a 'click' sound) before because that allows me to know how many pounds of pressure I need in order to get the firearm to discharge.
 
DeletedUser123xyz

DeletedUser123xyz

just a dream within a dream…
Aug 16, 2025
48
Too many to count, but maybe only a handful where I actually wanted to die.

In 2019 I cut my wrist so bad the blood was squirting out like a garden hose. A doctor later told me I must have hit an artery or something.

When I seen all the blood I freaked out and applied pressure to stop the bleeding, but if I had my time back I probably should have just let it bleed. Things have only gotten worse since then.
 
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unleashedman

unleashedman

Member
Aug 13, 2025
8
None.
The method I chose is definitive and my death is guaranteed with almost 100% certainty.
 
iamnotadinosaur:(

iamnotadinosaur:(

lost
Aug 19, 2025
61
I am currently aware of 5.
Currently aware?
Haven't had any 'official attempts' yet but scrolling through the methods on here is already making me feel more motivated and better even if I have to order some of the stuff at some point, sure its a little daunting but honestly im more upset by the fact I cant share how excited and relaxed im feeling over it with people im close to. Im genuinely looking foward to it but there's no way for me to express that
same
 
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mirror_mercury

mirror_mercury

Banned
Aug 25, 2025
98
more than three times

and i've survived every attempt

at this point....... i don't even know

and the hospital debt bills crushed me even further
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
It's in the 50s technically.... it really pisses me off how hard it is for me to die
 
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strawberry931

Member
Aug 23, 2025
76
Just one about 3 weeks ago. I know what I did wrong and trying again in a few weeks. It WILL be successful.

I created a post about it.
 
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InTheAbyss

Student
Jul 30, 2024
147
Attempts that with a decent chance of succeeding? About 4. If you include attempts that had little change to succeed. Then too many to count.
 

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