How good is sleep, right? 💤

[sadjenny]

I love being asleep. On a good day, even the process of just going to sleep is wonderful. I will lay in bed daydreaming about the fantasy worlds from which I wish I came. And then that moment when you're just about to fall asleep.. I experience my chest lightening. Anxiety vanishing. Then, nothing.

It's the closest thing to being dead.

Looking forward to my next sleep is sometimes the only thing that keeps me going. I am grateful to have this pleasure! Even the nightmares my mind can generate are no where near the nightmare that is living.

 

[marudekinoumitai]

Absolutely. When my brain won't shut up and all I can think about is how much mental pain I'm in... It's the only thing that helps.

 

[Blackroom_57]

The only thing I look forward to in a day is sleep. It's the only time I'm not in pain.

 

[Alfarooq]

I agree with you all. But I don't just want sleep.i have finally decided to make the decision to CTB. I would much appreciate if anyone would give me an assisted suicide method in the UK. I have let people down so much, I keep making mistakes, I am too dumb for this world, everyone around me is succeeding in life except for me, I will not make it in this world at all. I will never succeed or be able to do what I always wished to do. So what's the point of living? Life is for those who are able to make use of themselves. Those who have a good future in their life. Those people deserve to live. I don't. I have no motivation and no chance of success. It's not like I deserve to live anyway. This 6 months lasting depression is all my fault.

 

[downndone2]

Yes, some days it's all I do and somedays my brain won't let me get any

 

[qwerty1969]

Sleep is terrible for me and the reason why I am pushing forward with killing myself. I have horrific neverending dreams as a result of medications taken previously.

 

[Mimi_]

I wish I could sleep more than 3-5h. But my brain wakes me up very early in the morning. I am just so exhausted...

 

[Shadowlord900]

Oh lucky you somnias, while us poor insomnias have to suffer with our effed up brains waking us up too early and end up acting like half-sleeping zombies during most of the day. XP

 

[Rogue Proxy]

"Sleep is good, death is better; but of course, the best thing would to have never been born at all."
- Heinrich Heine

 

[ShotgunShell]

God I relate to this so much.

Sleeping is the only time I really feel "safe" anymore. It's the only time I can (nearly) guarantee a few hours where my brain isn't screaming about something and can actually feel at peace.

I personally don't have any sort of set beliefs on what happens after death, but God, I hope it's just like taking the best nap of your life.

 

[outrider567]

No, I don't like sleep because I have nightmares every night

 

[Kta1994]

I wouldnt know, i have insomnia induced by anxiety and chronic pain

 

[blackwidow92]

I agree with you, sleep is the only time I'm not in emotional pain

 

[FuneralCry]

Temporary sleep could never be good enough for me. It could never offer much relief as long as the chance of waking is always there, only true peace exists in permanent nonexistence where this life won't even exist as a distant memory. There is nothing more ideal than being able to permanently not exist (apart from never existing at all) as having awareness inevitably leads to more suffering. And it isn't like we can just choose to sleep, I often find it hard to get to sleep and sometimes I wake up and cannot get back to sleep.