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Reywashere

Reywashere

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Aug 20, 2023
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I don't think I'm unloved. I have friends. I care about them and I believe they do too. I had crushes and few people have confessed to me, but still I feel like this is not how people describe being loved. I feel like I'm giving people more than they are giving me. It's not their fault. They did not force me to feel that way, but I'm sad that I haven't found a person who gives me the exact amount of love that give them. I want to be cared for and loved by somebody.
 
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bubbledumbprin

bubbledumbprin

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Nov 18, 2024
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Just because you feel that they don't love/like you as much as you love/like them, doesn't make it true. Our perception of reality and reality itself, are often entirely separate.
 
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suacide

suacide

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Sep 13, 2023
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Perception is a weird thing. For me, I never realised how much someone loved me until they died. It's hard to put into words, but I agree with bubble up there.
 
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IDontKnowEverything

IDontKnowEverything

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Mar 2, 2025
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I want to be cared for and loved by somebody.
I wish to answer you, I really do, but the moment I receive a single speck of care, I spiral.
If I had existing self worth and less trauma, I'd know, and I'd tell you all about it.
To get care and love, you must accept care and love.
Yet if there were ever any such people in my life so far, I know I must have fucked it up by getting scared. Made it seem like I didn't want it, despite my assistance I appreciate it and my panic to give back.
My guess is that receiving something like that is happiness, and a sense of peace.
You'd have to both be comfortable with each other, comfortable with the love, and it would have to be normal.
So a sense of satisfaction and peace that runs a little deeper than surface level? In my opinion you'd have to love and care for them back for that as a requirement too.
Yet again, for such a thing you must genuinely be ready to not only keep doing what you are currently doing, but also be ready to actually accept and feel happy about getting loved and cared for.
 
InevitableDeath

InevitableDeath

Already Dead
Jan 4, 2026
292
Feels great until you find its self-serving bullshit.
 
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RaggedDoll

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Dec 18, 2025
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Like its the only thing that ever mattered.
 
SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Wizard
Nov 26, 2025
650
Probably the only thing that keeps me going. I have a couple of people in my life who love me a lot. However, one is halfway across the world and the other one Is really old and near the end of their time.Not sure how I will carry on after they pass.
 

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