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impossible_victory

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Dec 26, 2025
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The urge to ctb is inconsistent. Sometimes I feel determined but I need time to arrange my affairs. I am not feeling a strong desire to ctb lately despite losing my dog. My life is meaningless. A few years ago I bought a gun to ctb. I don't wish to do it violently anymore but I don't have N or sn.
 
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thelostautistic

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Jul 31, 2025
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You're not alone in this feeling. I also feel quite inconsistent about wanting to ctb. Some days I'm feeling motivated to keep myself going and other days I'm crushed by the sadness. I honestly don't think there's ever a "right time" to make such a big decision like thisšŸ¤
 
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meatballlover

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Feb 23, 2026
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I also feel super inconsistent with this decision. Smh wish i would settle for one.
 
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