Help advice please?

[lukewarmlemon4de]

I can ctb soon easily (all I have to do is jump off my apartment when I have the opportunity to- it's a guaranteed death as I live on the 40th floor) . The problem is I can't commit to actually ctbing, and it doesn't help that I'm really prone to mood swings (esp on my period) so one moment I'd feel the urge to live and one moment I won't, as corny as it sounds. I'm also moving out soon to another apartment that isn't nearly as high so I'd lose out on a relatively easy ctb. I feel like I'll regret it if I don't take the chance now (I mean I do sometimes regret not doing it earlier, not like. I could've anyways lmao)

sorry for the weird rant

 

[white_car]

If you do still feel the "urge to live", then maybe focus on that for now?

Otherwise jumping off the 40th floor doesn't sound like the most peaceful way to go. Not what I would call an "opportunity". Maybe get to that other new home, see what life brings, and reconsider then.

 

[LastDayOnEarth]

If you do it now you won't know if the urge to die faded away later. If you still wanna ctb after moving out you can always do hanging

 

[minsolive]

I definitely understand the mood swings, you're not alone on that. but i'm sorry you're dealing with it, it can be so exhausting. i definitely think it's best to wait. jumping can be very painful and at times unreliable. Move to the new place and see how you feel. if you have moments of wanting to live i think it could be worthwhile to explore that. it may become easier to hold on to those moments for longer. i hope you are able to find peace in this life. if you'd like to talk im around.

 

[eggsausagerice]

jumping can be very painful and at times unreliable. Move to the new place and see how you feel. if you have moments of wanting to live i think it could be worthwhile to explore that.

there's lots of posts about people failing to jump once they're at the ledge and even a post about someone who survived their jumping attempt. it's hard to say where someone is certain to die instantly. i would recommend staying to see how you feel after the move, even if it isn't ideal, because you might feel better. but since i have intense mood swings because of my period as well i can completely understand the urge and desire to jump off the roof if you know it's lethal. i would probably feel incredibly afraid once i jumped though.

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

Have you tried taking hormonal birth control? They suppress ovulation and balance hormone fluctuations which smooths out mood dips.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Have you ever seen a psychologist/psychiatrist? Being put on mood stabilisers could help.

 

[lukewarmlemon4de]

If you do it now you won't know if the urge to die faded away later. If you still wanna ctb after moving out you can always do hanging

im just slightly worried that I'll regret not killing myself especially when I could do it relatively easily (apart from the fact that im a bit of a wuss). I've considered hanging but it just sounds so risky esp cuz I've heard abt lots of failed partial hangings. I can't fail an attempt because I will definitely be discovered and i don't want to imagine the consequences of that

Have you ever seen a psychologist/psychiatrist? Being put on mood stabilisers could help.

haha it probably would help but I'm not in a position to get a psychologist rn, I would probably once I can. slightly stupid question, if I had a therapist or sth in the future and I told them I was suicidal would I get locked up or something

 

[v0wkeeper]

I can ctb soon easily (all I have to do is jump off my apartment when I have the opportunity to- it's a guaranteed death as I live on the 40th floor) . The problem is I can't commit to actually ctbing, and it doesn't help that I'm really prone to mood swings (esp on my period) so one moment I'd feel the urge to live and one moment I won't, as corny as it sounds. I'm also moving out soon to another apartment that isn't nearly as high so I'd lose out on a relatively easy ctb. I feel like I'll regret it if I don't take the chance now (I mean I do sometimes regret not doing it earlier, not like. I could've anyways lmao)

sorry for the weird rant

if you feel there's an urge to keep going, its always best to keep going. mood swings shouldn't decide whether you should really want to ctb.