Help how do you get past survival instinct?

[bear_trapped]

i actually don't know if it's survival instinct or if i'm scared of the unknown after death, but everytime i attempt i end up getting scared right before it's fatal. i really want today to be my last day on earth so i need to get past this. i've lost my brother, mother, i'm losing my house, the meds aren't working, and no one in my family cares about me or will help me. i'm done trying, i need out

 

[lacustra]

what's your method then?

 

[lacustra]

a method that circumvents SI such as taking pills.

911 exists.

 

[littleadonis]

911 exists.

Right but the idea is that you're supposed to pass out, made more reliable through benzo usage.