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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
I know someone who rings and talks for ages when she's not ok but if I ring her for the same reason, she always brings the conversation back to how she feels... Anyway, she rang first thing this morning and I'm now exhausted, frustrated and reminded of how isolated and alone I really am.
 
HopingOnaMiracle

HopingOnaMiracle

Specialist
Mar 8, 2024
305
Anxious, depressed. I feel like this most days.
About to go out and walk trough nature with 2 old friends but Im afraid. Id rater sit alone all day, that is what my feelings tell me. But it might be a good idea to move. I juust with my depression would leave me alone for once.

I took 2 lorazepam. Im supposed to do this only every other day but I can't deal with this
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,007
Dear Lord, just let me die please.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,015
I'm sad because he doesn't want to be friends with me
 
lemonbunny

lemonbunny

daydreaming the pain away ☆.。.:*・°
Sep 9, 2023
243
dumb 🤡
 
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NullSz00

NullSz00

Full-Swing Sayonara
Feb 22, 2024
214
Letting time pass by...
 
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moshimoshi

Apr 6, 2024
749
Honestly feeling awful. I feel really sad and feel sick to my stomach. And scared. Also feel extremely guilty
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,007
I feel awful. It's early morning, I slept little and I feel just awful.
 
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Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
343
Right now, I feel incredibly anxious for no apparent reason.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Tired but determined to make the most of today's sunshine after what feels like weeks of torrential rain - or having a migraine when it's nice. Anyway, I've got a wash on and once that's hanging outside, I shall take the dog for a much-needed walk and try to catch up with the podcast episodes that have gone unplayed for weeks.
 
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JaJu

JaJu

Student
Apr 3, 2024
100
Feeling a sense of impending doom with work days coming right around the corner... I just want to sleep in every day. ;-;
 
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Endofit

Get me out of here
Jan 19, 2024
69
I am so tired. I've been fixing things I should have fixed long ago and it's exhausting. I want to sleep for a week or two
 
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HopingOnaMiracle

HopingOnaMiracle

Specialist
Mar 8, 2024
305
Right now, I feel incredibly anxious for no apparent reason.
Same. I feel like that every day almost the whole day the last 10+ months. Why do I feel like this??
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,007
I genuinely don't know how to make it through this day without tranquillizers.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Was feeling pretty good for a change but it just takes one minor triggering event and down I go. Trying to hold on to how I felt an hour ago but it's like trying to conjure up sunshine on a grey day of low clouds and drizzle.
 
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tbroken

tbroken

Wizard
Feb 22, 2024
689
Everyday i think about all the things that went wrong in my life and it was not my fault. I would literally have to replace a great part of my memories with something else and of course it is not possible. I'll soon receive all the medications for my method and I think I'll proceed to CTB, it would be the only real relief.
 
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DeadButDreaming

DeadButDreaming

Specialist
Jun 16, 2020
362
Unfulfilled, unsatisfied
 
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LittleJem

Visionary
Jul 3, 2019
2,639
Not crying but howling this morning.

Just split up with boyfriend and now totally alone. I really don't know how to do this....He is breaking things where he lives - furniture, windows - cos that is what he does when he loses the plot. He is still calling me a lot. I just don't know how to cope. I'm so alone. He says he loves me. He is half my age.

With him I take more drugs and spend more money. I also find him annoying. Which could be my depression but I think is that the relationship doesn't work.

Saying that I can't see a relationship working with anybody. I am just going to have no friends till I die and I am 46 so it is a long way to go...

So today is about 'staying strong' when I have nothing and no-one.
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,007
Determined.
 
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moshimoshi

Apr 6, 2024
749
i actually feel pretty okay right now for once. not the best but not too bad. A tiny bit of anxiety but other than that
 
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Suicide Girl

Suicide Girl

Member
Feb 28, 2024
31
continuo me sentindo uma perdedora inútil e sem esperança alguma..a única coisa que poderia me fazer feliz agora seria a morte..cansada de ter que aguentar tudo isso e disfarçar para os familiares ao redor
 
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nonentity

nonentity

professional fool
Apr 5, 2023
64
i feel tired, but neutral - not bad or good, just existing which i think is good fwiw

not looking to ctb anytime soon, and i'm working on healing ❤
 
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bieatmania

bieatmania

早く殺してくれ。
Dec 22, 2023
51
feeling motivated but most of time bored, there's time of day where I go out and attempt to socialize or just do anything. then I go back home and it's nothing, just pure boredom. I just get through it. that's all I can do.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Nauseous and dizzy but very grateful to be in my own bed and not in a hospital ward of any description.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,214
Alright actually. I did my taxes yesterday and it turns out I'm getting a pretty fat tax return this year since I actually have a job now. Almost $2000. Now I just need to figure out what to spend it on. I'm lucky that I don't exactly pay rent or most of my bills.
 
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Blurry_Buildings

Blurry_Buildings

Just Existing
Sep 27, 2023
460
In desperate need of alcohol.
but also in pain like always.
 
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