Discussion How do you feel about your scars?

[feder]

So I was wondering how people who sh feel about their scars, do you like them, hate them or feel nothing.

For me, I hated them at first, but then I accepted them as an inevitable consequence of what I do.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

i feel shame about them, especially in public. unless im wasted then who gives a fuck xD

but most of the time I would rather bandage and hide them

 

[MrDarkness]

I look at them with pride, I remember every scar and the reason they were made, I usually when I cut my self on purpose or mistake I usually say, one more to the collection. I'm fucked I know

 

[AllFoxedOut]

I look at them with pride, I remember every scar and the reason they were made, I usually when I cut my self on purpose or mistake I usually say, one more to the collection. I'm fucked I know

interesting how we feel the exact opposite about it, I wonder what leads a person to feeling pride or shame over their scars? I'm not judging you or anything, we're on SaSu... we all kinda fucked

 

[MrDarkness]

It's cause I mainly cut not feel love or emotion, so it's more of a mark of the journey, I feel some shame tho

 

[soft-flower345]

I love them, and I only hide them in workplace environments when I'm going to be around others who are of a higher status in the company.

Otherwise, I love just having them out, I like that people stare at me, I like that depending on the circumstance I can be labelled by others as a freak or product of misfortune, or both.

if someone is being an asshole to me, and I casually roll my sleeves up, I can watch their expression go from agression to shock/disgust/fear real quick and that makes me feel powerful in a sense. Its been years since I haven't had tons of them marring my appearance, but once I accumulated a ton of them, people who used to bully or look down on me started to feel guilty about their conduct or fear towards me, I like that. It makes me feel like I have control, and that my pain is real, which is why I got into this addiction in the first place.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

I love them, and I only hide them in workplace environments when I'm going to be around others who are of a higher status in the company.

Otherwise, I love just having them out, I like that people stare at me, I like that depending on the circumstance I can be labelled by others as a freak or product of misfortune, or both.

if someone is being an asshole to me, and I casually roll my sleeves up, I can watch their expression go from agression to shock/disgust/fear real quick and that makes me feel powerful in a sense. Its been years since I haven't had tons of them marring my appearance, but once I accumulated a ton of them, people who used to bully or look down on me started to feel guilty about their conduct or fear towards me, I like that. It makes me feel like I have control, and that my pain is real, which is why I got into this addiction in the first place.

I understand that point of view, in fact it sounds empowering. wish I could feel that way about them

 

[feder]

i feel shame about them, especially in public. unless im wasted then who gives a fuck xD

but most of the time I would rather bandage and hide them

Yea I kinda feel shame when I'm in public or around family too, that's why only long sleeves gang. When ure wasted nothing matters lmao, a good way to cancel out Survival instinct btw , at least for me. But I do understand the people who put some sentimental value on them or want the ones who hurt them to feel guilty for what they did, not my thing tho.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

Yea I kinda feel shame when I'm in public or around family too, that's why only long sleeves gang. When ure wasted nothing matters lmao, a good way to cancel out Survival instinct btw , at least for me. But I do understand the people who put some sentimental value on them or want the ones who hurt them to feel guilty for what they did, not my thing tho.

cancels out SI, but also makes me lazy. if I had a gun or something I'd already be gone but mass shooters kinda ruined that for everybody else. oh well

I can't be only long sleeves gang as I live in too hot a climate ;~; I'm always bandaged wrist gang. at least until they fade and I stop relapsing

 

[soft-flower345]

I understand that point of view, in fact it sounds empowering. wish I could feel that way about them

If you don't mind sharing, why do you feel ashamed of your scars?

 

[bunn1bel]

love-hate relationship. im fucked up so in a fucked up way, i think they're kind of hot. i purposely chose to cut my thighs for personal reasons, and so at first i hated them because that was the intention. i would still feel too embarrassed and ashamed to wear shorts in public, but i do wear skirts and sometimes the wind or how i move can expose a little and i don't feel that way. it's very strange. they're a part of me and they're never going away so ive grown to accept their existence.

 

[90starve]

i've never hated my scars - but i always have been, and still am ashamed of them. when i was in school, changing into my sport uniform was especially challenging, because i had to take everything off in a certain order as to not expose my scars.

i am comfortable wearing short sleeves because my arms have minimal damage - but i have not shown my legs in public for 7 years now, for fear of people making insensitive comments.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

If you don't mind sharing, why do you feel ashamed of your scars?

I view them as a sign of my self hatred and that self hatred has always been very internal for me. most of the time I am that silly/cheery guy that people wouldn't expect to hate himself. the scars are a sign I'm not that, they're an exposure to the world that I'm full of ugly and dark thoughts.

 

[feder]

cancels out SI, but also makes me lazy. if I had a gun or something I'd already be gone but mass shooters kinda ruined that for everybody else. oh well

I can't be only long sleeves gang as I live in too hot a climate ;~; I'm always bandaged wrist gang. at least until they fade and I stop relapsing

Honestly the hot climate is a big problem for me too, it hot almost all year where I live, but it's possible to find baggy/loose clothes to wear without getting too hot.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

Honestly the hot climate is a big problem for me too, it hot almost all year where I live, but it's possible to find baggy/loose clothes to wear without getting too hot.

I'm very heat sensitive unfortunately!! part of a sensory thingy. I even have the AC on in winter. so baggy clothes aren't really an option for me, I'd sweat too much :c

 

[Jamesun]

I hate them, they only make me suffer to see how useless I have been, people just give me weird looks when they see me, that's why I try to hide them, they make me ashamed, they are just a sign of my horrible mind and life.

 

[bluebird16]

Ashamed.

 

[Fabi_2312]

I kinda love them, they are a part of me and my life.
And it looks way better than blank skin.

 

[spøgelse]

i feel nothing towards them and don't give a shit about what other people think about them because it's none fo their fucking business

 

[The anhedonic one]

I have sh cigarette burns on my arms. I'm indifferent to them and of what others think.

 

[peachchildtenshi]

I sh daily, its pretty hard to hide it when you're always wearing short sleeves due to heat. so you have to cover it up one way or another
Its also worse when people finds out and pretend that they care about your behavior and try to talk you out of it.
let me be,

 

[TheSilentPrincess]

So I was wondering how people who sh feel about their scars, do you like them, hate them or feel nothing.

For me, I hated them at first, but then I accepted them as an inevitable consequence of what I do.

I have them all over my body and they are like huge, i had to get stitches for one of them and they are purple so I cant cover them with foundation. My other scars are just all over my body so I cant hide them. I just accepted it and thankfully nobody asks about them. I used to be insecure but I dont really care now.

 

[Dazai Disciple]

I go back and forth between hating them and total indifference towards them. I have pretty noticeable keloids on my arms that people always stare at or ask stupid questions about. A woman working the drive-thru the other day asked me if they were tattoos? Like yeah, dude...I got a bunch of scars tattooed on me lmao? I'd like to cover them with tattoos, but I don't if I'm able to since they are raised up on the skin. Sometimes I forget they are there until someone brings them up or I become more aware of my body. When I see girls with pretty skin, it makes me want to rip my skin off. Mostly, I just hate how fucking ITCHY they are.

 

[feder]

I sh daily, its pretty hard to hide it when you're always wearing short sleeves due to heat. so you have to cover it up one way or another
Its also worse when people finds out and pretend that they care about your behavior and try to talk you out of it.
let me be,

Honestly its the worst when people start to notice you only because of ur SH and try to "help" you on top of that.
I think its fine if they just want you to know you can talk to them if you are feeling bad, but if they start convincing you u need to stop its just dumb, like, you have no idea why I'm doing it so pls keep your opinion on what I should do to yourself. Totally get you.

 

[Terrible00]

I do not regret having scars, it has been the best stress relief so far but due to my family asking so many questions about them, I've just stopped. I wish I could sh everyday but I am just tired of hiding newer scars from people.

 

[inkyabyss]

So I was wondering how people who sh feel about their scars, do you like them, hate them or feel nothing.

For me, I hated them at first, but then I accepted them as an inevitable consequence of what I do.

I have a lot of mixed feeling for my scars. At one end I feel like they show what I'm feeling inside and I feel accomplished and satisfied when I see how big or deep they are, but at the other end I feel so ashamed and disgusted at them especially when everyone else can wear swimsuits and shorts and what ever they want without fear.

 

[numbed one]

Sometimes i wish i Never had scars in m'y arm but now i Can Do it liké a normal thing looking AT that i already have em

 

[magician99]

I don't care about them anymore. When I started sh 10 years ago, I was afraid that people would see the scars on my arms but after sh for all of these years, I've accepted the scars as a part of myself and my mental state. In fact, I can't even remember the time anymore where my arms didn't have any scars on them.

 

[hells "angel"]

So I was wondering how people who sh feel about their scars, do you like them, hate them or feel nothing.

For me, I hated them at first, but then I accepted them as an inevitable consequence of what I do.

When I was still cutting all I wanted to do was hide them. But after I attempted suicide and went to the hospital, my whole family knew. Took me a while to be fully comfortable showing all my scars (both upper arms, both forearms, both thighs, both inner calves. Burns from lighters on my ankles and hands, few on my right arm). I don't like how some of them look and some spots look bare, but they're there and they're not leaving anytime soon (if ever) so might as well be comfortable. (I wear shorts and tanks alot cause I have sensory issues with certain fabrics/styles). Also my body is already ugly with stretch marks and acne and acne scarring, so why not add some cutting and burning scars as well? That was my thinking.

 

[feder]

When I was still cutting all I wanted to do was hide them. But after I attempted suicide and went to the hospital, my whole family knew. Took me a while to be fully comfortable showing all my scars (both upper arms, both forearms, both thighs, both inner calves. Burns from lighters on my ankles and hands, few on my right arm). I don't like how some of them look and some spots look bare, but they're there and they're not leaving anytime soon (if ever) so might as well be comfortable. (I wear shorts and tanks alot cause I have sensory issues with certain fabrics/styles). Also my body is already ugly with stretch marks and acne and acne scarring, so why not add some cutting and burning scars as well? That was my thinking.

I'm happy that the burden of hiding the scars is not bothering you anymore, as weird as it sounds I think that's a more healthy attitude than being ashamed.
Wish you the best!