I won't be able to spend another year doing nothing. Deadlines are approaching whether I like it or not. I don't want to face things, so hopefully it will be the year I die.
I have always put too much stock on calendar dates and times when all they do is make me feel worse knowing how much time I spent without accomplishing anything. And even though feeling that way is something that was drilled into me by society, and doesn't matter either way, I can't get rid of it.