How do you deal

[suicidal.lady]

How do you people deal with these strong urges to die?
What do you do to cope?
It gets too much and I'm so overwhelmed

 

[Octavia]

I enjoy reading books or watching movies to distract myself from the bleak reality. Is there a particular reason why you would like to end yourself?

 

[Aguagu]

I like to watch stuff or take naps. It's a momentary distraction that tears me away from reality. I don't particularly like doing it only because I could be doing something better. But it feels nice and comfortable and I feel at least a little bit better.

 

[AVeryLazySloth]

I keep myself numbed with medication. When I am not numbed down I try to keep myself from getting into an endless loop of ways to take the trash out. Sometimes the urge to let something happen to me gets the best of me and that is basically what's the worst that happens. My doctor tried to prevent the worst by prescribing antipsychotics and yet still here I am. to me it is so weird that this little glob in our head is responsible for the self destruction that we experience. I don't feel worse in any way but I just feel more numbified in taking my own life.

 

[FuneralCry]

The way that I see it, if I don't ctb then I basically have no choice but to stay here and continue existing. It's just the unfortunate reality, and I hate every waking moment spent here. My thoughts of suicide are just a natural response to feeling trapped here in this cruel world, wishing for nonexistence is all that I know really. At least for some part of my time spent here I'm able to sleep, but even temporary sleep couldn't offer much of a relief as long as the chance of waking is always there. The only true relief for me could ever lie in death.

 

[Mimi_]

I don't, so I make pathetic attempts. However, after an attempt it kinda calms the urge until the next time.

 

[RichardFirst]

For me, it's dreaming. I go to bed each night knowing that I will have at least a few hours of escape.

 

[Dolphin55]

The way that I see it, if I don't ctb then I basically have no choice but to stay here and continue existing. It's just the unfortunate reality, and I hate every waking moment spent here. My thoughts of suicide are just a natural response to feeling trapped here in this cruel world, wishing for nonexistence is all that I know really. At least for some part of my time spent here I'm able to sleep, but even temporary sleep couldn't offer much of a relief as long as the chance of waking is always there. The only true relief for me could ever lie in death.

Are you not able to access SN or other methods due to being monitored? I see you posting here often and I'm sorry you aren't allowed to make the decision to leave if you want. It must feel terrible being trapped.

 

[bluefeather177]

Constant stimulation. Very loud music. Video games. Basically anything to shut off my brain. But then I never do anything to make my life better and make me less suicidal. lol

 

[BBBB]

I come here.

 

[FuneralCry]

Are you not able to access SN or other methods due to being monitored? I see you posting here often and I'm sorry you aren't allowed to make the decision to leave if you want. It must feel terrible being trapped.

Where I live reliable methods are very difficult to access and just keep on being restricted. And yes, there is the chance of other people potentially interfering, but it's just the way that things are unfortunately.

 

[SilentSadness]

There doesn't seem to be a way to deal with urges of this kind other than ctb, as pro-lifers have made any meaningful discussion of ctb impossible by tarnishing it the way they have. I hope you find peace.

 

[outrider567]

I come here, I watch old films, and old telly shows, I sleep a lot(despite awful dreams almost allthe time)I exercise a lot--nothing really works of course

 

[AnonymousRobin]

medication, movies, shows, sleep, university all of these help slight it or completely stop it. recently ive been indulging it with movies though

 

[SunnysSunset]

SH, Youtube, music, games. Mostly I just lay in bed and remind myself that up until now I've survived those incredibly strong urges and sooner or later it will fade out into just an annoying thought.
It's getting harder to ignore them though. So I guess I'll counteract that with more media consumption?