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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 46,843
The unfortunate reality is that if someone doesn't find a way to leave then they basically have no choice but suffer, it's simply just the way that things are. I find it tragic how life can torture people unbearably yet still not cause them to cease existing, we certainly exist in hell and under no circumstances could I ever wish to be trapped inside this decaying flesh prison.
warriorofeld
Traveller, beyond this marker lies midworld
- Mar 22, 2023
- 129
I cannot relate to the physical part of your question but the mental anguish is nigh impossible to ignore or even distract from temporarily. This site being the exception to that rule but what little I get it is fleeting. Hope you find peace as I will be trying the same. I got my methods and always close at hand but even that relief was gone as quick as it came.
tiny_dancer
Student
- Aug 23, 2022
- 136
I don't deal well at all, sometimes I can barely stand it. I'm trying to use that as ammo against SI and solidify my reasons for CTB.
LastLoveLetter
Persephone
- Mar 28, 2021
- 654
I don't deal with it, in all honesty. There's no cure for my physical or mental illnesses, I've tried everything at my disposal and I merely exist listlessly and miserably. I have no life, no friends, no family and now that the police have confiscated my SN, no way out either.Struggling with this now, stick around go insane or ctb tonight. But fear dying for sure, fear also trying that is dilemma.
unnormal9
SOLDIER T.
- Apr 12, 2023
- 1,134
A slow, dreadful death.
Bough of everything is fleeting. I wish pain fleeting too.
There's no choice to be die by decay, this is the scariest fear of it all.
Kundalini Guy
FULLY RECOVERED
- Mar 27, 2023
- 515
Get medicated because It really does help with the pain along with some form of escapism.. That's just how I lasted all these years since 2017, if I din't have either of them I would have 100% died long ago.
unnormal9
SOLDIER T.
- Apr 12, 2023
- 1,134
Why would you have such audacity to assume over the course of 7 years I have not already been on countless, innumerable medications?
It does not. If did for you, that's fine, but it not for me. All I was left with was immeasurable pain and a plethora of lasting side effects.
Kundalini Guy
FULLY RECOVERED
- Mar 27, 2023
- 515
charlotte_
Arcanist
- Mar 12, 2023
- 436
I just tend to distractions. At this point, video games is the only thing helping. It's unhealthy but that's the only thing that can make me stop thinking of death in any given moments
unnormal9
SOLDIER T.
- Apr 12, 2023
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parader
bpd, ocpd
- Apr 15, 2023
- 119
i distract myself whenever i can
if it gets too hard i either take meds to sleep a lot or i just dissociate until i can get to the point of being able to distract myself again
BlazingBob
Wizard
- Oct 28, 2021
- 610
They don't help everyone unfortunately. I'm assuming you're talking about psych meds. Since 1989 I've been on most of them at one point or another. Even tried TMS, ketamine infusions, psylosibin, and too many other things to mention. I'm lucky I do have medications that help with my physical pain. Many people are denied those. I'm glad you've found something that works for you.Similar threads
