How do you break out of ruminating

[wantingdignity]

I want to yell and scream about what happened and how shit everything is. I want the pain to just consume me until I'm just not here anymore.

It's exhausting to just constantly either be really really depressed or be in a state of mindless distraction. I'm trying to rebuild the area of the mind that's somewhere between the extremes, but the awfulness is extremely loud at the moment.

 

[fromange]

I want to know too

 

[monetpompo]

I want to yell and scream about what happened and how shit everything is. I want the pain to just consume me until I'm just not here anymore.

I want to know too

rumination is hell. i have no answer. i really do believe that it can kill people and ruin relationships if it goes unchecked. i just start imagining painful things or people not liking me when i sense rejection, and the rumination starts immediately. or i feel it in a quiet moment, like before bed when i'm trying to sleep, and i want to rip all my hair out so that i stop thinking about all these stupid things. i think the only real solution is finding things (real things) to do. like reading, exercising, going to social events, doing a hobby that requires concentration like learning an instrument. but the lack of a support system is also an easy way to fall back into rumination again and again. it's hard to ever leave it if you don't have things to fill your time and also meaningful people in your life. i seriously don't care about a single thing in my life if there's no one in it.

it's hard to imagine myself ever breaking out of it. i only stop thinking about things when i'm busy, but i'm never busy. it's kind of like getting a taste of being normal and preoccupied with something besides my own thoughts.