How do I get over the fact that at least one person I know (and I know who) will be ecstatic that I’ve killed myself?

[Weebster]

I know that I'd be dead and it wouldn't matter but I'm alive now and it bothers me a lot.

 

[Glowarm]

That sounds like a pretty hard thing to get over. I don't know what to say but I'm sorry that someone would happy over you ctb.

 

[gottablast888]

i would not give a flying fk because i know everyone who chooses to live will suffer and ill be resting in peace while they have to cope with the hardships of life

 

[Weebster]

i would not give a flying fk because i know everyone who chooses to live will suffer and ill be resting in peace while they have to cope with the hardships of life

That helps some. Thanks

 

[TakeMeBack07]

I find comfort in the fact that we are all equal in death. Nothing we do here will follow us, good or bad. That helps when I feel envy or shame.

 

[Weebster]

I find comfort in the fact that we are all equal in death. Nothing we do here will follow us, good or bad. That helps when I feel envy or shame.

So it doesn't matter when we check out because death is the great erase button

 

[TakeMeBack07]

So it doesn't matter when we check out because death is the great erase button

Personally, yeah, I believe that.
Course, it depends on your belief of the afterlife. But I despise religion and wish it had never had a part in my life. Atheism can be freeing and even relieving, I'm finding.
I'm indifferent about when someone commits suicide. If they believe it's the right time, who am I to judge them

 

[FuneralCry]

Some people can be very cruel and awful, but the way I see it, all life is so temporary and meaningless. We will all die eventually someday and nothing really matters as all our problems will die with us. I wish you the best.

 

[StarryStarry]

I could fill a stadium with the people who will celebrate my death. But quite honestly I'll be gone so I won't really give a shit. It bothers you now because you think about it but once you're gone there are no thoughts or feelings. It won't matter.

 

[Sadboyspecimen]

This is something I struggle with as well. I know there are so many people who will get a good chuckle out of knowing I did it. I don't believe anyone would truly be sad. This just makes my desire to live even lower. But to ctb would be to let them all win completely... They've already won though I guess. That's why I'm here in the first place.

 

[DontplayGod]

I'm in the same position, I have someone who would absolutely love it if I decided to commit, it's hard to let go of this world so you want to make an impact when you die, but you won't be there to acknowledge it ever happened assuming death is non-existence. If you choose to do so you could talk to a few good friends and tell them how this person would be happy you died, even better if you have evidence to back it up. That way they are seen as an asshole and your death wouldn't get the satisfaction from your death that they were expected, they're seen as what they truly are. It's up to you if you decide to do this, there may be some questions regarding the morality of doing this, but I personally see it as morally acceptable as it is just bringing light to the situation.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

I've had thoughts like this before. I guess I'm indifferent to what people think at this point.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Personally, yeah, I believe that.
Course, it depends on your belief of the afterlife. But I despise religion and wish it had never had a part in my life. Atheism can be freeing and even relieving, I'm finding.
I'm indifferent about when someone commits suicide. If they believe it's the right time, who am I to judge them

I agree that everyone has their own beliefs regarding whether or not there is an afterlife, what it is, maybe where, and all that. But, whether there is something, or isn't something, is a binary choice. It either exists or it doesn't. There is no in between. It can't depend on one's belief. It's a right or wrong proposition that will only be found to be correct, or incorrect, once the erase button is hit, so to speak. Simply believing something exists does not bring something into existence. Conversely, simply believing something does not exist cannot make it not exist.

 

[Lost Magic]

Fuck that person who thinks that way. He/she will be miserable and hateful person all their lives and you will be free. You win! At least that's the way I see it.

 

[Ixadavt]

If I had someone wanted me to do and would be happy about it, I pick a messy method and do it on their doorstep.

I feel for you though because I don't have that and don't have any idea how it feels. In fact, I'd like to think I'd be vindictive like that, but more than likely I'd curl beneath a rock an use it as motivation and evidence that I'm right and nobody gives...
My people are either understanding or don't want it to happen (didn't say they want me around).

I hope for you, that you find a way to come to terms with this. I wish I had anything at all to say here for you, but I don't. Except that I hope for you.