How come when I attemptped suicide I didn't feel anything but when I wrote a note after for a different attempt that hasn't happened yet I cried

[ihatemyse1f]

Why

 

[Karrikin]

Probably had you thinking about what exactly made you want to do this, what you'd lose, etc etc. I don't have a clear answer unfortunately but that's my best guess.

 

[Rev346]

Emotions don't always follow logic. Sometimes a small trigger can cause a huge emotional response. Its frustrating when things don't make sense. Do your best to ride the wave.

 

[joey2424]

Maybe the process of writing out your note is making you face your emotions, which you typically keep bottled up because they're too painful? I don't usually cry unless I have to speak my feelings out loud etc. even though my mind is constantly spinning with these thoughts anyway. I wonder if talking to someone about how you're feeling would be helpful for you.