Day started off with me taking 45 minutes to talk myself into getting out of bed... travelled 2 hrs to a training course where I subquently turned up late due to my anxiety issues this morning. But listening to music for the journey put me in a better mood.
Have then been sat in my hotel room for the last 3 hrs trying to build up the courage to go down for some food but thinking the later I leave it the less people that will be there...
Yeah today's been shit! I normally enjoy the solitude but have been plagued by my mind all day !! Welcome to the darkness
I stayed in bed until 5pm today. Had dinner. Started typing out what I think is my note. Keep thinking about how I could off myself in my bedroom right now because my parents don't check on me when my door is closed..
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Playing XCOM 2: War of the Chosen on Ironman Legend. Fucking 97% shots always miss. RNGesus hates me, but won't let me get a sudden brain tumor to die like Henry. Fuck this, I'm starting again.
I'm actually feeling on the mend. I still intend to someday, sure...but about everyday life, I'm feeling quite better right now. Or it could just be my great high's and my great low's.
Still, I'm feeling okay right now.
But then, I don't always like surprises, even if they're good surprises.
Not to rub it in, but for me, today was a good day.
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Not too good. 'Had to' (external expectation) accept a full-time job today. Not thrilled about it. Hoping it won't commence for at the minimum another week or two weeks. It'll be likely a Mon-Fri 9-5 job. Good grief. It'll likely impact my plans, particularly in the short term. I'll likely have to limit my days to now weekends, sigh. It's not the end of the world, it just makes things more complicated for me personally. I'm not wanting to go into detail either, respectfully.
But this felt good to vent. I'm not doing too good today, but I have hope, that eventually i'll succeed, despite this unwanted delay.
Not horridly. When I am not changing Mom's diaper, fixing her a tuna sandwich or running little errands for her around the house, I am online (usually here at SS). I have stayed in my nightgown all day, though: it is almost 5:30 PM here and I am very lazy.
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