Honestly...

[cloud99]

One of the things I live in constant fear of is accidentally dying a horrible, violent, painful, humiliating, slow death. That's why in the right mood on the right night I would for sure take a peaceful pill if you got one.

Anyone want to share their fears?

 

[illicit]

Honestly, one of my fears is me dying due to natural causes. If I die, I want to be the reason for it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I fear existing, it terrifies me how one can suffer so unbearably yet not die, it disturbs me how there is literally no limit as to how much agony one can feel as long as they exist. To me it's just so hellish how a human can potentially exist for so long, I fear being trapped in this existence for decades longer just to die slowly and painfully from old age.

Existing truly is just pointless suffering and I wish I never existed more than anything, to exist is the most hopeless abomination, existence truly is nothing more than an unnecessary harm that serves no purpose but to torment existing beings. It's such extreme unacceptable cruelty how there isn't the option to just easily die in peace as I only find comfort in death, only non-existence is ideal to me as it's the permanent absence of all suffering and harm.

 

[Lish]

Surviving my attempt.

Imagine waking up and being a quadriplegic.

Or waking up in the burn ward in constant, excruciating pain for the rest of your life.

This isn't even taking into account that everyone will treat you not as a person but as a statistic. People will react to your attempt, not you personally.

I would be more alone than ever and utterly powerless to attempt ever again. I would be trapped, forced to live. No independence. No control.

Oddly enough, a life sentence.

This is why I have not CTB yet. My plan has to be near perfect.

 

[cloud99]

Surviving my attempt.

Imagine waking up and being a quadriplegic.

Or waking up in the burn ward in constant, excruciating pain for the rest of your life.

This isn't even taking into account that everyone will treat you not as a person but as a statistic. People will react to your attempt, not you personally.

I would be more alone than ever and utterly powerless to attempt ever again. I would be trapped, forced to live. No independence. No control.

Oddly enough, a life sentence.

This is why I have not CTB yet. My plan has to be near perfect.

Good one. The exact same thing would happen to me. It's the reason I probably haven't done it. The fear to live, the fear to die. A desire to live and a want to die. WTF?

 

[lizzywizzy09]

Yes, I fear existing, it terrifies me how one can suffer so unbearably yet not die, it disturbs me how there is literally no limit as to how much agony one can feel as long as they exist. To me it's just so hellish how a human can potentially exist for so long, I fear being trapped in this existence for decades longer just to die slowly and painfully from old age.

Existing truly is just pointless suffering and I wish I never existed more than anything, to exist is the most hopeless abomination, existence truly is nothing more than an unnecessary harm that serves no purpose but to torment existing beings. It's such extreme unacceptable cruelty how there isn't the option to just easily die in peace as I only find comfort in death, only non-existence is ideal to me as it's the permanent absence of all suffering and harm.

If the world was coming to an end, that'd make my job so much easier. Everyone would be freaking out and I'd just be relieved I wouldn't have to do anything but wait a little.

 

[cloud99]

Honestly, one of my fears is me dying due to natural causes. If I die, I want to be the reason for it.

Your right to die. I get it, could be a powerful feeling. Personally though, would be nice to die peacefully, naturally, quietly. Just sooner rather than later.

 

[illicit]

Your right to die. I get it, could be a powerful feeling. Personally though, would be nice to die peacefully, naturally, quietly. Just sooner rather than later.

Yeah I agree with your preference. I think there is nothing wrong with that. Tbh, my ultimate death scenario would be to go to Japan and be in a skyscraper or a nice ass mansion and just take all the drugs in the world at once with an amazing ass view.

I think it's important to respect everyone's preference. Would be a bit weird if someone didn't (imo) haha.

 

[Naatas]

Failing. I've already failed myself with life so I cant bear to fail death too.

 

[cloud99]

If the world was coming to an end, that'd make my job so much easier. Everyone would be freaking out and I'd just be relieved I wouldn't have to do anything but wait a little.

If the world was coming to an end, that'd make my job so much easier. Everyone would be freaking out and I'd just be relieved I wouldn't have to do anything but wait a little.

The irony that, for those final moments (I hope it's a couple of days at least) some of us could finally live without panic and fear and dread and confusion. While there would be literally billions of people whose final moments would be only panic, fear, dread and confusion. Millions of peoples would be in denial too, I bet.

Tbf, I think some, maybe millions... billions? Would express love. Feel love. And if people can do that in their final moments, good for them. I don't mean like fake one on one love either, I mean universal love. (Not including everyone).

 

[lizzywizzy09]

The irony that, for those final moments (I hope it's a couple of days at least) some of us could finally live without panic and fear and dread and confusion. While there would be literally billions of people whose final moments would be only panic, fear, dread and confusion. Millions of peoples would be in denial too, I bet.

Tbf, I think some, maybe millions... billions? Would express love. Feel love. And if people can do that in their final moments, good for them. I don't mean like fake one on one love either, I mean universal love. (Not including everyone).

That's probably true. For me though, I'd just go to bed.

 

[cloud99]

That's probably true. For me though, I'd just go to bed.

That's what I'm talking about. Who doesn't love their bed? Millions of us in bed. Forever in bed.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I better fucking die in bed. I want a refund as it is.

 

[cloud99]

Yeah I agree with your preference. I think there is nothing wrong with that. Tbh, my ultimate death scenario would be to go to Japan and be in a skyscraper or a nice ass mansion and just take all the drugs in the world at once with an amazing ass view.

I think it's important to respect everyone's preference. Would be a bit weird if someone didn't (imo) haha.

Oh yeah, Japan, skyscrapers, veiw of the mountains and all the drugs in the world. Or a boring natural death in probably a fucking hospital. Japan it is, lets go...

 

[redeeming_butterfly]

I fear the pain. Physical and mental pain. There is nothing I fear more than pain. Without pain, everything would be so much more bearable.
I fear my cognitive and social incapacity. I fear every conversation.
I fear life. So much more than death.