
darknesstakeme
Member
- Mar 12, 2025
- 17
hi everyone,
I dont really know if anyone cares, but I just wanted to vent a little about my struggles and my reasoning for wanting to CTB.
Im diagnosed BPD and have struggled for nearly 10+ years of my life trying to fight the urges and keep going. I SH regulary and i try to do everything right, take my meds even go to
Therapy. Im a victim of rpe and have attempted twice before but I promised
My mother, the only person who truly cared for
Me that I would not try again, However she passed 3+ years ago now, and since then I started researching and planning.
Everyday is a battle and Ive finally got my method - hanging/partial, I found this site and will be using the next few days to make sure I have everything I need to make sure its 100% fullproof.
I just wanted to say thankyou for creating this space as so many irl want you to feel guilty or wrong for wanting to ctb, but who are they to say that living is worth all this suffering?
I may post questions/ask for reasurance a lot im sorry thats just my way of making sure everything is right,
Thanks H x
I dont really know if anyone cares, but I just wanted to vent a little about my struggles and my reasoning for wanting to CTB.
Im diagnosed BPD and have struggled for nearly 10+ years of my life trying to fight the urges and keep going. I SH regulary and i try to do everything right, take my meds even go to
Therapy. Im a victim of rpe and have attempted twice before but I promised
My mother, the only person who truly cared for
Me that I would not try again, However she passed 3+ years ago now, and since then I started researching and planning.
Everyday is a battle and Ive finally got my method - hanging/partial, I found this site and will be using the next few days to make sure I have everything I need to make sure its 100% fullproof.
I just wanted to say thankyou for creating this space as so many irl want you to feel guilty or wrong for wanting to ctb, but who are they to say that living is worth all this suffering?
I may post questions/ask for reasurance a lot im sorry thats just my way of making sure everything is right,
Thanks H x