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Ghostly

Ghostly

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Nov 21, 2020
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Hi I'm back after like a year or something I'm awaiting a diagnosis of borderline personality disorder/Avoidant personality disorder and My therapist is doing an assessment for bipolar 2 I feel like a failure I was hypomanic for like 5 days and now I've crushed and I feel so empty and destroyed inside I don't even know what I'm going to do in the future if I keep feeling this way god why am I alive like not even being edgy like genuinely why am I alive?? My life has been nothing but pain also my meds aren't working again so I've been having increasing psychosis and I feel like there's a microchip in my brain and that the fbi is watching me 24/7 I feel so depressed so I'm back basically back again..maybe this time I'll die I don't know I say that everytime then I fail or Pussy out so who even knows at this point?
 
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AnotherTragicName

AnotherTragicName

Member
Sep 10, 2021
83
Welcome back... crackers and coffee on the little side-table... No smoking please, we care about our health here a lot!
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edit: Hope I didn't come across insensitive. Of course, I relate to your struggles. Just wanted to light up the mood a little.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Welcome. I'm sorry you are suffering. I understand it is hard to carry on when things are hopeless. I ask myself why I am alive everyday and I have no idea as to why I am still here. I wish you the best.
 
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