autonecrotic
Maggy
- May 15, 2026
- 26
nevermind. i thought things were getting better but yet here i am choking down as many pills as i can find. its funny because i am still leaving myself xanax for tomorrow because i know i will survive it. i just wish it was a viable method that was fatal enough. i drank a whole bottle of whiskey, took about 6-10 1.0 mg alprazolam and 10 300 mg gabapentin and i know it wont work. i know ill just fall asleep for a long time and wake up eventually. i just wish i could go this way. i wish so deeply it could be this peaceful and easy. so i will just listen to Bark Psychosis, Tram and Death in June unntil i am unconscious. Though i am terribly alone right now and would appreciate conversation of any kind. i dont know. sort of just talking into the void here. whatever
