Story Here I am - a suicidal poet

[Ashe]

Slit my wrists again
I'm hitting the bottom of the bottle
Sittin in my room as I mentally descend
Feelin like a corpse all the time
All I want is to feel fine
But all I do is apologize
I really wish I'd just die
Feelin like a ghost homicide
Everythings so lovely when I fall asleep
But im so empty
Not even a husk of myself in my sheets
I cut myself to just to see if I still feel
If I got to know myself I'd be creeped
A worthless waste of space it's too surreal
But with my actions I finally get what I reap
Knowing that I will never peak
So come take my seat
Cause I leave for one more night in retreat
Hoping that the next will be my deceased defeat

 

[Dr. Henjin]

I get it. I'm no poet but that was relatable. You're not alone, especially hitting the bottom of the bottle time and time again. Dreamless sleep is really when I feel best.