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[itsnigh]

I'm spiralling. I was so comfortable with having ordered SN and meto and finally seeing a way out on the near horizon. I keep now being refunded for meto. It's like nowhere wants to let me have it without referring to GP. I am completely spiralling. I already couldn't get benzos and was willing to go without it but I read this method can fail easy without meto. It feels like my one small saving grace is ripped from me and I'm so desperate. I really need to get meto. I can't cope like this anymore and it's taking my mind even darker

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing yet it's so difficult to be permanently be free from it all, but anyway I hope that you find what you search for, I wish you the best, I certainly understand it's so dreadful feeling stuck here.

 

[itsnigh]

It's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing yet it's so difficult to be permanently be free from it all, but anyway I hope that you find what you search for, I wish you the best, I certainly understand it's so dreadful feeling stuck here.

Thank you for being so understanding. I'm in a constant state of dread, I'm so desperate I don't know where to turn to get help with finding what I need. I researched the SN method for weeks on here before I began posting. I intended to just go through my plan, maybe chat to others a little. Now I feel so trapped and the sweet moment of relief I had is gone. Why is getting SN easier than all the rest? I can't cope like this anymore