Venting Help the guy and his sister

[CuriousAboutThis]

Help the guy and his sister,
Welp the man and nothing against her,
For I don't know the whole story,
Of their life,
But I know,
This falls on my own,
For I am generous,
It is dangerous,
Not for you,
But for me,
This will end in misery,
And despair,
Out of desperation,

This cry for help,
For I am a whelp,
Of a man,
I shall stand,
On my own,
Might be disowned,
I need to learn,
To say no,
But I know,
This will end,
I don't pretend,
For how this ends,
I do not know,

I wish for certainty,
Not uncertainty,
It leads to misery,
It is my fault,
By default,
Of my existence,
Within persistence,
Vulnerability,
Within this misery,
I want to live,
Yet I want to die,
I do not lie,
Within this moment,
In the present,
I will not die,

I choose to live,
For my family,
And my friends,
For the pets,
And the rest,
I could die with some help,
But I choose not to die,
For I want to be alive,
I need some money,
For the rent,
Not to build a tent,
Within a lent,
Of alcohol,
I shall not fall for alcohol,

Like I did with crack-cocaine,
It will lead to a form of pain,
You won't gain,
From this life,
Within this strife,
The pain of hell,
Within my mind,
For I am kind,
And kind of cruel,
Almost like a fool,
Like a child,
Within a man,
For being an adult,
You need to learn to ask for help.