HELP! Promising med combo? *EDIT

[LonelyCat]

- Benzonatate (Tessalon) ~1700mg
- Temazepam ~360mg
- I'd of course drink a bunch with this, add in some OTC sleep for good measure

The Benzonatate alone sounds REALLY promising based on what I have read, but I know better, and want to make sure it is able to come on full force. The severe effects begin within 10-20 min and cause coma, seizures, hypotension, tachycardia, ventricular dysrhythmias, and cardiac arrest. The case reports state the person becomes unresponsive prior to this. I'm just not sure what this combo would do. I was hoping the large dosage of Temazepam would knock me out for most of it. I mean, my experience with convulsing and going into a coma, I didn't remember a damn thing. I passed out and woke up 10 days later (stupid ex).
- Also have a crap ton of stims: Vyvanse, Adderall, pseudoephedrine, albuterol sulfate, and prob more.

Flipside: most of what I'd need for SN should be here by end of week, but I was kinnndaa hoping that'd be my backup plan. Since, my timeframe may be limited: I've kicked my husband out, likely getting a divorce, and I don't want the extra time to tempt him to come back to check on me (I did change the locks). Nor do I want to have something else happen that would get in my way.

BTW: I'm feeling hopeless as I've had many failed attempts - most medications/drug/alcohol combos; cuts; electrocution; weak attempt at various forms of asphyxiate, always failed/got caught; so I rarely attempt these methods anymore bc I know the outcome (extremely frustrating + psychward). My QUESTION is if anyone has heard anything or have any experience with Benzonatate bc I cannot find any personal experience on this. Just very general data. Thus why I am here.

THANK YOU!

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I would say that if you truly want assistance, don't tell people to look it up, provide the links, or quotes. Respectfully, none of us is dying for you, so we shouldn't have to do the prep work.

You say you know better. You also say you have lots of experience with most med/drug/combos.

I feel like you're saying, "Hi! I'm new in the neighborhood. Come see my yard! I had a lot of toxic weeds in my yard in the past. Will you please look at this weed, research it, and then tell me it's a massively beneficial vegetable?"

Welcome to SS. I mean that. There's lots of information and support here. It's a forum that promotes personal choice and self-determination. If you want to end up back in the hospital and/or psych ward, and you know from experience that it can and quite possibly will happen again, that is your choice, and your effort to make it happen. If you believe you've found a method that guarantees success and want support to ensure it please do the work to help us help you. If you are in reasonable doubt, it's much more beneficial to invest your efforts and limited time in starting to do the planning for a successful ctb with a more reliable method.

 

[LonelyCat]

I would say that if you truly want assistance, don't tell people to look it up, provide the links, or quotes. Respectfully, none of us is dying for you, so we shouldn't have to do the prep work.

You say you know better. You also say you have lots of experience with most med/drug/combos.

I feel like you're saying, "Hi! I'm new in the neighborhood. Come see my yard! I had a lot of toxic weeds in my yard in the past. Will you please look at this weed, research it, and then tell me it's a massively beneficial vegetable?"

Welcome to SS. I mean that. There's lots of information and support here. It's a forum that promotes personal choice and self-determination. If you want to end up back in the hospital and/or psych ward, and you know from experience that it can and quite possibly will happen again, that is your choice, and your effort to make it happen. If you believe you've found a method that guarantees success and want support to ensure it please do the work to help us help you. If you are in reasonable doubt, it's much more beneficial to invest your efforts and limited time in starting to do the planning for a successful ctb with a more reliable method.

For starters, I am brand new on this site. Literally just joined today. And I am so sorry, my apologies - You are right, I should have included a link, that was not thoughtful. In terms of listing my past, that was 100% NOT my intent. It was more of a disclaimer to avoid getting arguments against taking med combos. Furthermore, it was also to explain the frustration level and hurt I am in. For anyone who has made multiple attempts, they know how disheartening that can be. And RIGHT NOW, I am hurting and I am frustrated, and I was asking for HELP, and kind words.

I do appreciate and respect your comments/opinions. But I would respectfully ask if you don't have anything to say that is helpful, to actually answer my question, then perhaps don't answer it or send me a PM (if that's allowed?). Thank you.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I sincerely hope you receive beneficial help here. I wish you all the best in life and, if you choose it, in ctb.

Edit: I respect that you set and held your boundary. I acknowledge I was not circumspect enough in my choice of words. I will disengage so that you do not have to worry about further interaction with me. There's plenty of folks here for everyone to find people and issues they mutually resonate with. Take care.