Help Help me

[constantdarkness88]

I need it to end. I can't seem to get SN. I just want to close my eyes and it all to stop.
I've so much support and no one understands the constant pain and turmoil I'm in.
Currently crying my eyes out with frustration, pain and overwhelmed.
A few years ago I took a cocktail of pills which ended in me being in an emergency psych unit which was the worst experience ever and in fact made my failure worse.
I have so many different factors that are at play and the one thing I want is the full stop, the end, now!!

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for as existing in this world certainly is torture. There really is no peace from suffering in this world and it's extreme cruelty how it's this difficult for us to die.

 

[constantdarkness88]

telling others they don't understand is just as hard. I'm lucky they want to help but those words about how well you're doing or you can get through this can cut like a knife too.
Does that even make sense to anyone?