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notben1

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Oct 14, 2025
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So I've basically wanted to commit suicide since i experienced some serious trauma between the ages of 11-13. I still want to commit suicide every day, I'm 26, 27 in November. I made some choices I regret and I can't back out of and now I'm looking to end it all painlessly. I see a lot of people talking about sodium nitrate, I was wondering how painless it is. My last attempt failed (chloromine gas) because I failed to mix the chloroform needed to pass out before I felt the sting of the chloromine. I've also been considering helium, as there's a holiday around the corner and I could easily get myself a helium tank. I was hoping someone could give me more information on the methods I've provided, on their painlessness and ease of access, specifically SN, does it hurt? Is it quick?
I've tried pretty much every recovery resource available to me, none of it helped. I had a beautiful girlfriend for years, not even she could help pull me out of this. I fear a lifetime of this anguish. Please help me go peacefully.
 
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traingirl

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Oct 7, 2025
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So I've basically wanted to commit suicide since i experienced some serious trauma between the ages of 11-13. I still want to commit suicide every day, I'm 26, 27 in November. I made some choices I regret and I can't back out of and now I'm looking to end it all painlessly. I see a lot of people talking about sodium nitrate, I was wondering how painless it is. My last attempt failed (chloromine gas) because I failed to mix the chloroform needed to pass out before I felt the sting of the chloromine. I've also been considering helium, as there's a holiday around the corner and I could easily get myself a helium tank. I was hoping someone could give me more information on the methods I've provided, on their painlessness and ease of access, specifically SN, does it hurt? Is it quick?
I've tried pretty much every recovery resource available to me, none of it helped. I had a beautiful girlfriend for years, not even she could help pull me out of this. I fear a lifetime of this anguish. Please help me go peacefully.

SN is pretty much unobtainable now. There's a list of resources that will tell you more and you can use the search function to search keywords.
 
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Off_Switch

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Aug 15, 2025
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To me, it seems like carbon monoxide while asleep is the only painless way to go.
 
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hell toupee

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Sep 9, 2024
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There is a golden rule that I think generally applies here.

You can only choose 2 of these 3 attributes, and no more than 2.

Fast
Painless
Reliable

Unfortunately, there aren't any fast, painless methods that are easily accessible.

Given this is a major decision, it's going to take some time to research the proper methods. Look in the resource section.

The main takeaway should be you don't want to try something half hazardly and end up with all the problems you have now, but even worse.
 
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kabuto43

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Sep 27, 2025
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So I've basically wanted to commit suicide since i experienced some serious trauma between the ages of 11-13. I still want to commit suicide every day, I'm 26, 27 in November. I made some choices I regret and I can't back out of and now I'm looking to end it all painlessly. I see a lot of people talking about sodium nitrate, I was wondering how painless it is. My last attempt failed (chloromine gas) because I failed to mix the chloroform needed to pass out before I felt the sting of the chloromine. I've also been considering helium, as there's a holiday around the corner and I could easily get myself a helium tank. I was hoping someone could give me more information on the methods I've provided, on their painlessness and ease of access, specifically SN, does it hurt? Is it quick?
I've tried pretty much every recovery resource available to me, none of it helped. I had a beautiful girlfriend for years, not even she could help pull me out of this. I fear a lifetime of this anguish. Please help me go peacefully.
Helium is very painless but the thing is u have to find an actual tank with pure helium in it and the holiday ones they sell don't have pure helium cuz they're mixed with oxygen which means the method can't work unless the inert gas in actually pure which leaves SN and that's a good enough method as well but it's hard to access although it's still accessible if you're pointed in the right direction
 
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Infinitespace_

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Jan 23, 2021
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There is a golden rule that I think generally applies here.

You can only choose 2 of these 3 attributes, and no more than 2.

Fast
Painless
Reliable

Unfortunately, there aren't any fast, painless methods that are easily accessible.

Given this is a major decision, it's going to take some time to research the proper methods. Look in the resource section.

The main takeaway should be you don't want to try something half hazardly and end up with all the problems you have now, but even worse.
Isn't it odd there are no suicide kits? this problem can easily be solved.
 
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Hollowman

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Dec 14, 2021
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I'm not being a hero. I'm trying to make them think about their actions before they make a life changing decision.

He said he faced some trauma. Theirs not context at all
Go to the recovery section. Your efforts might be appreciated there.
 
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hell toupee

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Sep 9, 2024
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Isn't it odd there are no suicide kits? this problem can easily be solved.

Of course it could easily be solved - the problem is various religions have convinced the government that 'only god can take human life'.

Nothing against organized religion, but these people will fight tooth and nail to prevent even people with cancer or the most horrible of diseases from ending their life.

I remember a long time ago when Dr. Krevorkian ("Dr. Death") was all over the news for helping people with Lou Gherig's disease (ALS) die using carbon monoxide. Every time you turned around the guy was being sued for this and that - even when he would video tape people in excruciating pain, just barely able to mouth the words "I want to die" and people still gave the guy shit for it. I think he actually went to jail for a period of time.

It's sickening. If you are of sound mind and no longer want to continue with existence, it should be nobody else's decision as to what I do with my life.
 
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homeboundcripple

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Jun 6, 2025
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There is a golden rule that I think generally applies here.

You can only choose 2 of these 3 attributes, and no more than 2.

Fast
Painless
Reliable

Unfortunately, there aren't any fast, painless methods that are easily accessible.

Given this is a major decision, it's going to take some time to research the proper methods. Look in the resource section.

The main takeaway should be you don't want to try something half hazardly and end up with all the problems you have now, but even worse.
Carbon monoxide is all three, if you do your homework.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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Carbon monoxide is all three, if you do your homework.
I'm concerned about reliability. I don't know if it's my brain tricking me though. Nothing is certain anyway. Goal was two chimney starters worth of charcoal , in small bathroom. Maybe I still should.
 

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