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- Aug 18, 2025
- 12
I am not all that well, and I let the spill into the relationship.
I watched the control I had over myself slip away, I became irrational, desperate for what I had lost.
I became self destructive, not considering the consequences of my actions
I'm left alone now, feeling the pain of what I've built, the decisions I've made, the behavior I've displayed.
The town it all happened in became a representation of my failures, I could barely leave my home.
I got away, I left with hope to change, and I believed I could leave the thought of my ex behind.
I still think about them daily, at random times in the day, it's been months and I can't move on.
I wonder deeply what's keeping me hooked. I torture myself by rechecking their social media, I try to keep myself away.
They've moved on, they're doing better actually. I'm happy about that, and I'm angry too.
I feel like a chud, like a huge loser.
I watched the control I had over myself slip away, I became irrational, desperate for what I had lost.
I became self destructive, not considering the consequences of my actions
I'm left alone now, feeling the pain of what I've built, the decisions I've made, the behavior I've displayed.
The town it all happened in became a representation of my failures, I could barely leave my home.
I got away, I left with hope to change, and I believed I could leave the thought of my ex behind.
I still think about them daily, at random times in the day, it's been months and I can't move on.
I wonder deeply what's keeping me hooked. I torture myself by rechecking their social media, I try to keep myself away.
They've moved on, they're doing better actually. I'm happy about that, and I'm angry too.
I feel like a chud, like a huge loser.
