I envy them, to me the only fortunate ones are those who no longer suffer in this dreadful, torturous and futile existence, all I want is peace from this evil existence that just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering and only ever tortures existing beings, non-existence is all I see as positive, I wish I could erase this existence, to exist really is an abomination to me and I always suffer so unbearably from being so cruelly denied the option to cease existing in peace.