Health Problems

[khw777]

Do health problems make you want to ctb?

 

[DarkDane]

Yes.
More or less the main reason.

 

[khw777]

Yes.
More or less the main reason.

May I ask what health problems you have

 

[Bluefish]

Yes

 

[DarkDane]

May I ask what health problems you have

A long list.
Always had health problems since I was a kid. Eczema, astma, allergies. Got stomach problems when i reached 12 years of age, was always tired, chronic fatique, joint pain, skin issues, inflamation of eyes and mouth.
I have come to the conclousion that i should never have been alive and im a genetic failure.

I really wanted kids, but i dont wish this on anyone, and i know some of it is genetic.
Weak stomach, skin problems etc.

So yeah, if its mental or physical i understand the struggles, mental problems in my opnion is physical, so i understand the pain.

Kinda always knew i had to go early, when i saw people my age happy and energized and i needed coffee just to stay awake.

 

[khw777]

A long list.
Always had health problems since I was a kid. Eczema, astma, allergies. Got stomach problems when i reached 12 years of age, was always tired, chronic fatique, joint pain, skin issues, inflamation of eyes and mouth.
I have come to the conclousion that i should never have been alive and im a genetic failure.

I really wanted kids, but i dont wish this on anyone, and i know some of it is genetic.
Weak stomach, skin problems etc.

So yeah, if its mental or physical i understand the struggles, mental problems in my opnion is physical, so i understand the pain.

Kinda always knew i had to go early, when i saw people my age happy and energized and i needed coffee just to stay awake.

I'm truly sorry for your pain and suffering. I cannot even imagine your pain. Your list of health problems makes me sad. I wish you were not in so much pain. I can tell your life is very difficult. I hope everything gets better for you.

 

[epic]

Do health problems make you want to ctb?

Yes

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Yes one of the biggest reasons it makes me unable to cope

 

[vonvonwantpeace]

Well, it's one of the reasons, I have been dealing with abdomen issues like diarrhea constipation and sharp pain in my abdomen.

 

[neilo99]

Yep without doubt and the medication has screwed my mental health too

 

[DarkDane]

I'm truly sorry for your pain and suffering. I cannot even imagine your pain. Your list of health problems makes me sad. I wish you were not in so much pain. I can tell your life is very difficult. I hope everything gets better for you.

Thank you, that means a lot.

Our society just progress faster than we evolve, (unhealthy living and so on) so many of us fall ill in the process. But at the same time it just seems like natural selection. If people are going to survive in the future their will need a adaptive digestive system.

I think i should be thankful i wasent born in the Spartan age, if their had weak babies or babies with malfunctions their would get rid of them, so if their saw my eczema it would have been down the drain :D

So im thankful for the time i had even with the suffering.

 

[passenger27]

They don't exactly help my state of mind. My stomach hurts almost all the time because of ulcers. I take 2 different prescriptions but they don't help much, and I can't afford an operation. I was actually hospitalized at age 12 with one, hard as that is to believe. My back stays in pain as well due to sciatica. A cortisone shot helps when I can afford one, but even with insurance they're expensive. I'm definitely not going to miss either of those pains when I ctb.

 

[Lilith81]

Yes diabetes and bipolar

 

[lymbo]

They don't exactly help my state of mind. My stomach hurts almost all the time because of ulcers. I take 2 different prescriptions but they don't help much, and I can't afford an operation. I was actually hospitalized at age 12 with one, hard as that is to believe. My back stays in pain as well due to sciatica. A cortisone shot helps when I can afford one, but even with insurance they're expensive. I'm definitely not going to miss either of those pains when I ctb.

how u plan to cbt?

 

[passenger27]

how u plan to cbt?

I've really been wanting to ctb using the CO method but it's sure been a pain in the ass. There's just so many steps and variables. The last time I did a test to see how high the CO levels got in my van it got high enough to be lethal but I put a thermometer in there and it got too 100 degrees in 30 minutes & pretty much stayed there the rest of the 2 hours I tested. I've got plenty of benzos & vodka but damn that's hot. I can't help but wonder if the benzos could keep me asleep with that much heat.

I guess my backup methods are drowning, jumping, or as a last resort a gunshot to the head. I'd hate to be found that way though. So I'm still trying to find something that's a sure thing. I can't afford to fail, I want it to be right the 1st time.

 

[kappa]

Yes because I feel like it's more of a reason to off yourself than, "I'm just depressed". I could deal with my depression but I really can't deal with the physical aspects on top.

I have been sleep deprived for a year and a half straight. It's effecting my jobs and school.Been to the ER over it too many times. It's honestly one of the biggest reasons I feel like attempting. Always feel sick from it.

Bad body/muscle pains, even have stress rashes on face that hurt. I don't know if this is because I'm getting older, or if I just can't handle my emotions problem anymore.

 

[epic]

Bad body/muscle pains, even have stress rashes on face that hurt.

Have they given you a diagnosis ?

 

[Fragile]

yes, and since it is a degenerative condition and there is no way to cure it, i'm making peace with one last year of this suffering and then go by my own means, before it gets much worse than it already is.

 

[khw777]

Yes because I feel like it's more of a reason to off yourself than, "I'm just depressed". I could deal with my depression but I really can't deal with the physical aspects on top.

I have been sleep deprived for a year and a half straight. It's effecting my jobs and school.Been to the ER over it too many times. It's honestly one of the biggest reasons I feel like attempting. Always feel sick from it.

Bad body/muscle pains, even have stress rashes on face that hurt. I don't know if this is because I'm getting older, or if I just can't handle my emotions problem anymore.

I understand about not sleeping. I have a mystery illness that prevents you from sleeping and it's very difficult to deal with no sleep constantly. Your body feels more pain when you can't sleep. I'm sorry for your pain and suffering. Not being able to sleep is one of the main reasons I want to ctb. I feel chronically fatigued and feel like a zombie. I feel like I dying. I feel your pain.

 

[MeltingHeart]

Well, it's one of the reasons, I have been dealing with abdomen issues like diarrhea constipation and sharp pain in my abdomen.

Sounds like bad IBS which can be caused by or in turn cause a lot of mental health problems- there is increasing research to show this - because of all the nerve endings in the stomach- intrinsically linked to the certains parts of the brain- causing you to feel or be caused by anxiety , stress and all sorts of emotional turmoil. Loads of books about it. & I had bad IBS for years caused by anxiety - which of course made it worse- really viscous circle!

 

[Misanthrope]

Core reason honestly. There is no value to me in this state. Being ill all the time, watching others living joyously while I waste away. Constantly frustrated, bored, brain fogged, or sick. There is no quality of life in this and the little things are not enough to make it bearable.

 

[Rachel74]

My mental health is the reason. I've suffered too long now with this.

 

[vonvonwantpeace]

Sounds like bad IBS which can be caused by or in turn cause a lot of mental health problems- there is increasing research to show this - because of all the nerve endings in the stomach- intrinsically linked to the certains parts of the brain- causing you to feel or be caused by anxiety , stress and all sorts of emotional turmoil. Loads of books about it. & I had bad IBS for years caused by anxiety - which of course made it worse- really viscous circle!

I have been having ibs symptoms for almost 5 years. It's embarrassing. I have diarrhea attack. Also I have lot of gas trouble. The doctor told me nothing could be done about it except be given drugs for pain I was completely stupefied.

 

[truthseeker]

Chronic health issues with no chance of improvement. One of two or a combo of both will take me if I want to continue suffering this life for a few more years, which I don't plan on.

 

[Chronicillness]

It's the only reason I want to CTB. This includes mental health problems as well.

 

[Sweet emotion]

It's the reason why I will have to kill myself.

 

[Foster13]

Main reason for me. I have some unknown issue with my breathing, as a consequence I almost can't sleep. + some other problems as a result of not getting enough oxygen

 

[morningdew]

yes, from the health problems came emotional pain. Not many ways to cope when you activity is limited. I just wish it was all over

 

[Le_lacrime_di_marzo]

Yes. If my body would just behave itself then I wouldn't want to die. Damn flesh prison. I spent all my life looking after it and feeding it healthy food and exercising it and not smoking or drinking and now it's gone and played me like this. I wish I was a hologram!

 

[Deleted member 1465]

If I could get my health back I could take the rest from there.