Health Problems

[misterskinners]

My declining health is the main reason.

 

[khw777]

Yes. If my body would just behave itself then I wouldn't want to die. Damn flesh prison. I spent all my life looking after it and feeding it healthy food and exercising it and not smoking or drinking and now it's gone and played me like this. I wish I was a hologram!

What problems do you have.

 

[Foster13]

Yes

What do you have?

 

[Darkhaven]

Main reason.
It killed the last thing holding me onto life and destroyed my self esteem.

Yes. If my body would just behave itself then I wouldn't want to die. Damn flesh prison. I spent all my life looking after it and feeding it healthy food and exercising it and not smoking or drinking and now it's gone and played me like this. I wish I was a hologram!

I totally relate to what you said.

 

[morningdew]

Yes, chronic health issues.

 

[kappa]

Have they given you a diagnosis ?

No.

 

[epic]

No.

Come what may, get a diagnosis of your condition (I am pretty sure you have tried but go to the worlds end if you have to). What if your condition turns out to be treatable or curable ? I hope you get good news. Good luck.

 

[tehdisturbedone]

I got tendonitis in my entire body, or rather tendonitis that turned into tendonisis from when I collided head first into another skater at a skate contest in San Francisco. Literally ever since then I had an immediate lose in range of motion, skating was immeadtley very different, walking moving everything was just weird. I also feel like ever since that day I've felt just a higher level of being depressed everyday. Because of my tendonitis , when it acts up I cant lift my arms above my shoulders, walking feels like there's a knife in between my knife caps and its stabbing me on every step. The more I work the more it acts up, the more I stress the more cortisol in my body that build up and the more inflammation i get

 

[redbull]

I understand about not sleeping. I have a mystery illness that prevents you from sleeping and it's very difficult to deal with no sleep constantly. Your body feels more pain when you can't sleep. I'm sorry for your pain and suffering. Not being able to sleep is one of the main reasons I want to ctb. I feel chronically fatigued and feel like a zombie. I feel like I dying. I feel your pain.

I also literally can't sleep at all. I need tons of sleeping pills and i still barely sleep. This just happened to me and I'm scared I'm stuck like this forever. Did you finally get a diagnosis?

 

[Dreamwithinadream]

My health issues are entirely the reason I can't live. I have several chronic conditions that will never go away and I'm in severe pain.

 

[khw777]

I also literally can't sleep at all. I need tons of sleeping pills and i still barely sleep. This just happened to me and I'm scared I'm stuck like this forever. Did you finally get a diagnosis?

I have gone to many doctors. I'm scheduled to see a psychiatrist on November 14th. I have not recieved a diagnosis but not being able to sleep at all is driving me closer everyday to ctb. I'm sorry you're struggling and experiencing this nightmare. I hope you're able to sleep.They say lack of sleep drives people to susicide. I believe it.

 

[Taki]

Do health problems make you want to ctb?

Based on your question and responses, you sound like a voyeur, someone who gets off on others' pain.

I'd encourage others not to reply to this.

 

[khw777]

Based on your question and responses, you sound like a voyeur, someone who gets off on others' pain.

I'd encourage others not to reply to this.

What do you mean. I don't understand.
Did I say something to offend you?

Based on your question and responses, you sound like a voyeur, someone who gets off on others' pain.

I'd encourage others not to reply to this.

I have health problems that's why I posted my thread. Why is that inappropriate?

 

[lymbo]

yes the reason l WLL CTB S SEVERE CRONYC BACK PAYN

 

[Dazedandconfused32]

Yes, I've recently been diagnosed with MS and have had a lot of trouble with exhaustion and pain as of late. Not even including Major Depression, Dissociative Identity Disorder, PTSD and anxiety. Everything just keeps adding up and I'm tired. So so tired.

 

[MeltingHeart]

I have been having ibs symptoms for almost 5 years. It's embarrassing. I have diarrhea attack. Also I have lot of gas trouble. The doctor told me nothing could be done about it except be given drugs for pain I was completely stupefied.

When I first got prescribed an anti - depressant it was atleast in part because it was meant to help Ibs- due to all the nerve endings in the gut- it can be react to mood and anxiety- each one effects the other in turn- it did help for a bit

 

[Hunter100]

I have been having ibs symptoms for almost 5 years. It's embarrassing. I have diarrhea attack. Also I have lot of gas trouble. The doctor told me nothing could be done about it except be given drugs for pain I was completely stupefied.

I have severe IBSC (constipation) and there are several medications you can go on that will help DRASTICALLY! I can not believe your doctor stated that there is nothing for ibs except pain meds. Bentyl is a good one with no real side effects. Unfortunately for me it doesn't work anymore because I have other things going on. But when I just had regular IBS and not IBSC it did help! Please google it and give it a try.

 

[Starseedchip]

yep, I was doing better actually and starting to become less suicidal. Now im super sick and although I dont have a diagnoses yet I know its bad. Now I want to cbt so I have control over my ending.

 

[lymbo]

yep, I was doing better actually and starting to become less suicidal. Now im super sick and although I dont have a diagnoses yet I know its bad. Now I want to cbt so I have control over my ending.

ur pretty cute

 

[Rising Phoenix]

Health problems both psysically and mentally are the only reasons that I would CTB at this time.

 

[kappa]

Come what may, get a diagnosis of your condition (I am pretty sure you have tried but go to the worlds end if you have to). What if your condition turns out to be treatable or curable ? I hope you get good news. Good luck.

Yes I have tried. I went to general doctors, let my psychiatrist know every time I saw him, was sent to a sleep specialist once. The specialist told me to just get in bed at the same time each night and wake up at the same time. I was in a very hostile living situation at the time so I kept taking naps so I didn't have to be awake.

Got bloodwork done with 4 different panels recently, all normal. Made a follow up appointment and the dr cancelled it because she said she didn't know how to treat me. Trying to get into a sleep specialist center that is not connected to the hospital/clinics I am assigned to because they are shit. I really don't wanna "ctb" because I'd rather not die miserable- that's bad mojo. But not sure what else to do.

I told my therapist about it and how I felt- and he basically said he doesn't know the Value of my life and what I believe my own worth is, so he can't say it will get better because he doesn't know- therefore can't really tell me I shouldn't do it. Seems kinda fucked up but idk. Sometimes I need that fake faith.

 

[OnlyMercy]

I think most people would be willing to live with a few minor health conditions which don't otherwise significantly interfere with the ability to experience life.

It is often the chronic untreatable conditions which limits one's ability to earn an income and hence, once autonomy, which brings the desirability of life into question.

 

[Kingkelly]

yes chronic pain and health issues, I can barely walk anymore my whole body hurts my legs hurt so bad 24/7 for a year and noone can tell me why. ITs bs Im done I cant live in pain like this.

 

[epic]

yes chronic pain and health issues, I can barely walk anymore my whole body hurts my legs hurt so bad 24/7 for a year and noone can tell me why. ITs bs Im done I cant live in pain like this.

I would give you the same advice I have given @kappa . Before you plan anything, do get a diagnosis(I am pretty sure you have tried, but go to the worlds end if you have to) . You never know it may turn out to be treatable or curable. I have heard MRI can detect problems with the legs (I am not a doctor) . Have you seen a neurologist? You can even start a thread on this forum. I am sure there will be people from medical profession here who could point you to further tests.

 

[kappa]

I would give you the same advice I have given @kappa . Before you plan anything, do get a diagnosis(I am pretty sure you have tried, but go to the worlds end if you have to) . You never know it may turn out to be treatable or curable. I have heard MRI can detect problems with the legs (I am not a doctor) . Have you seen a neurologist? You can even start a thread on this forum. I am sure there will be people from medical profession here who could point you to further tests.

Yeah I've tried. The dr canceled me appointment because she said she didn't know how to help me. Sorry if I already posted that, no sleep last night. I asked for a referral and they said they approved it, no referral was made, so they said they would try again. I was trying to change healthcare provider but didn't have time to wait longer on hold due to work.

I don't have nerve pain, it's muscle tightness. I assume related to not sleeping. It was brought up to my psychiatrist a lot because he was prescribing me meds, and some were sedating. He also said there is nothing he can do for me.

Even tried speaking to a sleep specialist, been to the ER a few times because I needed immediate help. They asked what I wanted them to even do.

Hard to be optimistic when I can't even get help from someone in Healthcare.

I tried ODing a few times 3 years ago. Didn't really have physical symptoms just depressed. Now that I actually have a reason to be depressed- it's harder to deal with. Told the dr it was ruining my life. Was missing work, and missing my 1 class on campus. They don't want to deal with it. I feel like I have done everything- I can't get help if they won't see me you know.

I would give you the same advice I have given @kappa . Before you plan anything, do get a diagnosis(I am pretty sure you have tried, but go to the worlds end if you have to) . You never know it may turn out to be treatable or curable. I have heard MRI can detect problems with the legs (I am not a doctor) . Have you seen a neurologist? You can even start a thread on this forum. I am sure there will be people from medical profession here who could point you to further tests.

Wow I'm sorry, I was tagged in this and misread it as directed to me. My bad

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Yes. I have chronic pain and I'm in my mid 20s. I can't imagine the rest of my life with this shit. I don't want to live like this for the rest of my life.

 

[Squiddy]

Yes. I have brain fog, bipolar, bpd and anxiety