shotgun
im alive but im dead, awake but asleep
- Sep 14, 2023
- 29
I've been talking about a guy for a while. The first (and single) time I actually talked to him I reached out it went alright, but I didn't know how to continue the conversation so I fucked it up. Anyway, I tried reaching out again two times. Both days I got left on delivered for more than 4 hours, leading me to delete the text. The thing is, he was active while I was waiting for his reply. It makes me sick thinking about how he probably sees me as a weirdo already, and how he hates getting any notification from me whatsoever. I didn't want him to see me the way I see myself, why couldn't I have avoided it?
