Have you lost your will to live?

[dust-in-the-wind]

I have no will to live. Major depressive disorder is brutal.. I barely function, doing the bare minimum. I'm never hungry, don't take care of myself and spend most of my time decaying in my bed. I I know a lot of you on here are depressed but has anyone else completely shut down to life?

 

[tbh2023]

I have. I feel dead already. I also have depression.

 

[motherofmahesh]

Yes. It has been like this for years already.

 

[Fall_Apart]

Yes i do. But the thing that scares me the most is that I also feel the need to isolate myself, I don't even want to talk to my friends, let alone meet them. I feel like I am completely out of time now, and I don't even want to catch up. It's like I'm slowly fading away, any ambition seems useless to me.

 

[nomoredolor]

yes. I wish my attempt last week hadn't failed. I would've died loved and not alone
Anna

 

[zulcywulcy]

I have no will to live. Major depressive disorder is brutal.. I barely function, doing the bare minimum. I'm never hungry, don't take care of myself and spend most of my time decaying in my bed. I I know a lot of you on here are depressed but has anyone else completely shut down to life?

yes

 

[TheHolySword]

I haven't had it for a long time.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

Yeah I've lost the will to live and all ability to participate in life. When I go out I feel like a ghost amongst the living. The only thing I see in my future is death.

 

[diy-event]

it comes in waves that I am just tired of life and would prefer to just end it

 

[yowai]

Yeah many times and currently I'm forcing myself to function through drug abuse lol

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Yes... Just haven't been able to end it yet.
I still shower. I have work. At least for now.

 

[Metalhead]

For sure, I'm just empty inside, zero will to do anything, way past the point of caring, broken, defeated & left to rot.

 

[rebelnow111]

I have no will to live. Major depressive disorder is brutal.. I barely function, doing the bare minimum. I'm never hungry, don't take care of myself and spend most of my time decaying in my bed. I I know a lot of you on here are depressed but has anyone else completely shut down to life?

yeah my life is ruined and unbearable and hopeless

 

[pointblank]

Yeah. I'm pretty much jaded. Haven't showered or brushed my teeth for days now.

 

[VoidBlessed]

Yep. Any illusion I had that I could hold on somehow is gone. What I know follows me everywhere, every moment even when I'm sleeping. I'm just not interested in living any longer.

 

[Yiyo123]

I lost my will to live years ago. The emotional pain sometimes is unbearable.

I lost my father this year and I really don't know if he really loved me. He never accepted my conditions (major depression disorder, anxiety, psychosis, insomnia, etcetera). My mother and brothers have the same way of thinking. So I feel alone, empty and hopeless.

I hate my life. The worst part of my days is when I try to go to sleep because I always wish to never wake up. Imagine how I feel every morning.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I feel the same way. I think I'm on auto piolet. There is nothing inside. I just work the bare minimum and the rest of my days, I sleep away.

Are you on any medication? If so what do you take if you don't mind me asking! I'm thinking about starting my medication again, i use to take Prozac. It helps numb me but not completely, but I'm tired of feeling like this.

I guess some help is better than nothing.

 

[jamesu7777]

Living in fear.

Darkness everywhere.

Dead inside.

No purpose.

No reason.

Down I go.

Repeat.

 

[Yume Nikki]

Yep, after my recent breakup, I've lost that last glimmer of hope I once had when I was with him when I realized he was just like everyone else who previously abandoned me. I began eating less, but only consuming junk food, sleeping in bed all day, and playing video games on my PC to distract myself. I really don't have any intentions of living past my 30's honestly.

 

[GiverTaker]

Yes I lost it a long time ago. I wish SI wasn't so strong, I would be already dead

 

[dontwakemeup]

Yep, after my recent breakup, I've lost that last glimmer of hope I once had when I was with him when I realized he was just like everyone else who previously abandoned me. I began eating less, but only consuming junk food, sleeping in bed all day, and playing video games on my PC to distract myself. I really don't have any intentions of living past my 30's honestly.

I'm sorry you have to feel like this. I feel the same way you do. I decided, I'll never feel like this again and promised myself I'll never date again. Do you ever think he will call you again? Part of me feels it's unfair to myself and I should go and try again, but the risk of this happening again is too frightening for me so I don't take it. My life is basically the same as yours.

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

I'm not there yet but the fatigue is setting in. For the first time in my entire life I thought about rehoming my cats. That's how I know I'm close.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I lost a part of my life and it'd be better if I was long gone. A part of me died right after I failed in life but the rest of me is a alive and still doesn't want to die. I'm mentally dead & physically healthy and alive.

 

[Salkak]

I have also lost the will to live. I feel dead and I want my body to die too. I feel stuck while the rest of the world is moving. I don't see any future other than this. I wish I was dead.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Maybe not totally but, everything is a struggle. I suppose the things still making me carry on are: I don't like to suffer. I don't like to be hungry. I don't want the risk of developing infections from not washing. I don't want to be homeless, so I need money. I maybe have less support than others. If I don't do these things, they simply won't get done. Maybe my parents would support me for a limited time but, they'd give me so much shit for it. That would feel even worse. So, it's more that I so desperately want to lie down and do nothing but, I don't feel I can. Not entirely anyway. It's such a constant struggle though.

 

[Deathw!sh]

I also have depression and spend most of my time in bed, it's horrible. I have bipolar disorder. I'm also afraid of what's happening to me and my body since I am so inactive and I don't see a way out :(. It has never been this bad as it is right now, the feeling in my chest is horrible.

OP, how do you support yourself financially?

 

[Tig]

I feel like I lost will to live a long time ago, when i lost my wife.
Severe depression set in right after that.
Everyday feels like torture, 12 years now.
I can't believe I've made it this long.
I still work, commercial diver, I can at least zone out underwater, and the work is always interesting.
12 years of this SHIT is to much for anybody to bare, especially with the severe physical that pain I feel creeping in on me more and more every day, more depression still....
Have I lost my WILL to live ?
Definitely, CTB with a partner, the end of January.
She has had enough of this shit too, years as well.

Hope they find a cure for depression in all forms one day.

Completely shut down to life, as you said....
@dust-in-the-wind

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

It's more like I've gained a will to die, but I've also still retained my will to live in some ways. Thankfully the latter is fading more and more the longer I go without ever having been in a romantic relationship. For now though these two wills will just have to share the mind space and constantly come into conflict.

 

[unknown_xav]

I have, I have always had struggles with depression but I think it kinda got worse now. Health issues, haven't made it easier either. It's kind of a weird feeling, feeling detached from the daily processes one is "supposed" to do in society including interactions with family. I've also lost interest in things I used to be so much passionate about, which I now think where just remedies to keep me from facing my predicament. It's like I wake up everyday with a sense of a world that is meaninglessness, and having constant angst of having being born.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I assume by a "will to live", you actually mean conscious will to live? If so, no. I don't want to live life and I believe that an earlier death is better than a later death for me but unfortunately, just like every human being on this planet, I have the "will to live" in terms of survival instinct. This doesn't mean that I voluntarily want to live though as SI is happening against my rational desires