Have you lost the love of your life?

[throwaway123]

Just curious to know how many here did.

 

[andy69]

Yes, in April when he met someone else. I gave up so much for him. .Now he hates me and probably wants me dead. Now I have nothing. It's my motivation to end my life.

 

[Soul]

Yes. He actually got married to the younger woman he dumped me for. The problem is that even with a broken heart I never stopped loving him, because love is love and not fade away.
About nine years (and one divorce) later he came back. We're together now. I forgave him and he does his best for me, and love is real and not fade away.

 

[blanketyblk]

yes, she took her own life 8 years ago. never been whole since. still miss her ever day and i dream about the life that we could of been living

 

[a_strange_day]

yes, it was 20 years ago but it still hurts, the only person I could really connect with. she died in a car accident, and me too in a way

 

[paul29]

Yes. 20 years ago. The explicitly-voiced reason shattered my sense of identity. I never recovered.

 

[Icarus]

Yes. I messed up twice with that person because of my immaturity and feeling of self-importance.

 

[Roger]

She died.

 

[reveriewong]

I'm sorry for everyone's loss. May your loved ones continue to live on in you, and may you continue to move forward with a resilient spirit.

 

[Sh00]

No, I've never been able to experience love in any sort of friendship/relationship. My brain just isn't wired right. I'm able to care about family and that's it.

 

[Halo13]

Yes. He actually got married to the younger woman he dumped me for. The problem is that even with a broken heart I never stopped loving him, because love is love and not fade away.
About nine years (and one divorce) later he came back. We're together now. I forgave him and he does his best for me, and love is real and not fade away.

I love this story, thanks for sharing.

yes, she took her own life 8 years ago. never been whole since. still miss her ever day and i dream about the life that we could of been living

I read your story about this when you first joined here. I'm sorry for your loss.

 

[Taki]

Yes. He got a better offer.

 

[blanketyblk]

I read your story about this when you first joined here. I'm sorry for your loss.

Thanks, amazing how i just have never gotten over her. always fresh in my mind, first thing in the morning, last thing at night. even after 8 years. nearly 9 now. and i get so jealous when i see another gay couple just holding hands and having a life.. ahh. well life was never sold to me that everyone gets to have a happy ending.

 

[Halo13]

Thanks, amazing how i just have never gotten over her. always fresh in my mind, first thing in the morning, last thing at night. even after 8 years. nearly 9 now. and i get so jealous when i see another gay couple just holding hands and having a life.. ahh. well life was never sold to me that everyone gets to have a happy ending.

If it's any consolation, I think that shows how truly and deeply you love her. Many people go their whole lives never having a love that strong and resilient. Hell, I'm jealous of that, nevermind other couples

 

[blanketyblk]

If it's any consolation, I think that shows how truly and deeply you love her. Many people go their whole lives never having a love that strong and resilient. Hell, I'm jealous of that, nevermind other couples

ooh i do know that. i have been very fortunate for that. growing up i never though i would find love, or find someone who would love me back. (ugly girl). so our connection was always very special to me and still is. even thought it ended with me having a broken heart. i would never trade our time for happier memories.

 

[Halo13]

ooh i do know that. i have been very fortunate for that. growing up i never though i would find love, or find someone who would love me back. (ugly girl). so our connection was always very special to me and still is. even thought it ended with me having a broken heart. i would never trade our time for happier memories.

That's exactly what I meant. Even though I'm a member here planning to ctb, I try to bear in mind the collective balance when I experienced things others have not, lived a pretty interesting life up until everything took a permanent turn for the worse. I'm completely alone now - no living family, no friends left or partner - yet I know when the time comes, there was some great things mixed in with the hellish events. I think there's closure in knowing that, despite the days I'm losing my mind (which are most days). The bad outweighs the good but still...it's something.

 

[blanketyblk]

That's exactly what I meant. Even though I'm a member here planning to ctb, I try to bear in mind the collective balance when I experienced things others have not, lived a pretty interesting life up until everything took a permanent turn for the worse. I'm completely alone now - no living family, no friends left or partner - yet I know when the time comes, there was some great things mixed in with the hellish events. I think there's closure in knowing that, despite the days I'm losing my mind (which are most days). The bad outweighs the good but still...it's something.

Yes. yes.. while the bad outweighs the good.. there was at least some 'some' good years in my life. and well at this stage in life. i will take what ever good bits i can get

 

[burnedCookie]

yes, she took her life 3 years ago. I was so buried into my own darkness that I didn't even see that coming, I still wonder today what I would have done if I did
it's one thing to talk about suicide, but another to actually see it

 

[suffering]

I've never loved.

 

[Fadinglife]

ooh i do know that. i have been very fortunate for that. growing up i never though i would find love, or find someone who would love me back. (ugly girl). so our connection was always very special to me and still is. even thought it ended with me having a broken heart. i would never trade our time for happier memories.

You are not ugly. You are pretty and look confident as well

 

[Mr2005]

Yeah. Me

 

[malummo]

yes, she took her life 3 years ago. I was so buried into my own darkness that I didn't even see that coming, I still wonder today what I would have done if I did
it's one thing to talk about suicide, but another to actually see it

I can relate to this

 

[kkatt]

7 years ago, the only human I have ever loved died from MND (ALS).
Had he not have died, I probably would have grown to hate him by now