Have you had damage from an attempt?

[Never Free]

For a week after I attempted hanging I felt like I was walking in a dream. I had bruises and busted eye capillaries. Other than that, nothing.

Got bruises from hanging. Not sure how it effected me mentally. I was off and on Benzos and other additives plus a lot of drinking at the time

 

[Lara Francis]

Just mental scars and very dark memories.

 

[Qbert]

Short term memory problems from seroquel od.

 

[John Smith]

Just curious. Wondering if someone here has suffered permanent or temporary damage from an attempt, and how was it.

In my case, nothing more than some bruises in my neck.

Did you try full suspension and fail? if so why?

 

[John Smith]

Busted a bunch of capillaries in my face when I tried hanging. Took a week to heal.

I don't think I didn't any permanate damage when i ODed in 2015 but easily could have.

DId you fail at full suspension? If so why?

 

[John Smith]

I had a temporary red mark when I attempted hanging.

Did you try full suspension and failed? If so why?

 

[stellabelle]

Just curious. Wondering if someone here has suffered permanent or temporary damage from an attempt, and how was it.

In my case, nothing more than some bruises in my neck.

Only financially. $25,000 in medical bills later.

 

[NoOneKnows]

I do not have permanent damage from ctb attempts, I have permanent damages from what was done tome while being "incarcarated" for my crime (=suicide attempt) in psych ward. (i was infected with skin infection, big scar left, infected with virus that will stay forever, finally inappropriate negligent coerced injections, that should NEVER ,under any circumstances be given to sb with such medical history as mine- caused metabolic syndrome, pain under skin through all my body, inability to left the bed almost for whole day for almost a year due to massive effect on a dopa, receptors and other recep, i had bronchitis and pain my chest for over 2 months due to the drugs causing depression to respiratory system, the drug did something to my muscle tissues ,my muscles dissapeared and being replaced with fat storage(most likely diabetes will follow soon if i dont ctb),I experienced severe depression and also impossible anhedonia-smth that I never ever had before ever. and I could go on.) These b astards are one of the worst kind of legal criminals out there

 

[chrijo]

I survived a massive Morphine+Rohypnol OD. Got permanent damage in my left foot because of compressing my nerves after a painfull Compartment-Syndrom. I feel nothing in my foot.

 

[Moldova_3k]

Failed attempt at CO and then an OD attempt: memory issues regarding if things actually happened and also been 4 months and still feel like I am in a dream and world is fake. It hard to explain.

 

[Made4TV]

Jeez. I'm so sorry for y'all. This thread should be stickied at the top or something as a cautionary tale. It pays to research and practice and make sure of your method.

 

[Alexa]

When I OD'd on paracetamol and other fun painkillers I remember the temporary effects, it was really weird, when I tried to walk in one direction I ended up walking in the other quite often, really bad stomach aches and I had acid reflux for months.

 

[DoneBlonde]

One of my attempts I broke my ceiling and light , ended up having a CT scan but was fine. Another attempt I ended up damaging tendons and ligaments in my left ankle and leg.

 

[Sick Boy]

A few months ago i attempted partial,but i backed out and i eded up with temporary serious pain in my jaw
and i couldn´t eat for a few days

 

[Deleted member 847]

3 or 4 minutes without oxygen to the brain. I can't see any in my perception or cognitive skills.

 

[IRIYAMA]

Just curious. Wondering if someone here has suffered permanent or temporary damage from an attempt, and how was it.

In my case, nothing more than some bruises in my neck.

Tried a narcotics overdose back in '14, without research or preloading anti emetics etc
Big mistake, after passing out and then waking was vomiting for nearly 10 hours and had kidney pain/issues for over a year.
After that I took time away from the ctb ideation to spend tons reading PPH and "lostallhope.com" learning about methods.

 

[TheCrow]

I survived a massive Morphine+Rohypnol OD. Got permanent damage in my left foot because of compressing my nerves after a painfull Compartment-Syndrom. I feel nothing in my foot.

Aww, geez. I'm so sorry. I've heard of that, & it sounds awful. Can you bear weight on that foot at all? I had a similar experience; I attempted a heroin OD & blacked out/nodded out on my leg & cut off circulation to my foot, which became CRPS. I also have a contracture in my leg & foot now as a result of not being able to walk/use that leg/foot.

 

[Flowersarenice]

Had appendix and gall bladder surgery after an OD. Got a bunch of eye floaters (and other visual problems like flashes) and intractable paresthesia all over my head (feels like ants crawling under my skin) that still lasts to this day after my last serious partial attempt.

So you can get a feeling of ants under your skin from attempting partial?

 

[chrijo]

Aww, geez. I'm so sorry. I've heard of that, & it sounds awful. Can you bear weight on that foot at all? I had a similar experience; I attempted a heroin OD & blacked out/nodded out on my leg & cut off circulation to my foot, which became CRPS. I also have a contracture in my leg & foot now as a result of not being able to walk/use that leg/foot.

Hey, sad to hear that. Horrible experience.

I can walk again normaly after 2 Years. In this 2 Years I had to use a peroneus rail (hope that is the right name in english). I have a contracture in my great toe, but it is not that bad. Sorry to hear that you have this in leg&foot.

My Compartment-Syndrome was a result of a rhabdomyolysis caused by the Morphine OD. I think we have had the same shit.

 

[felix]

i got a permanent brain damage due to lack of oxygen

How long were u hanging? We're u rescued?

 

[felix]

Lost the functionality of half of my left leg permanently and got memory problems.

How did u attempt?

 

[felix]

Just curious. Wondering if someone here has suffered permanent or temporary damage from an attempt, and how was it.

In my case, nothing more than some bruises in my neck.[/QUOTE

Back of neck hurt and had red rope marks. Maybe a little bit of brain damage even though I was hanging for only 5-6 seconds

 

[felix]

Only financially. $25,000 in medical bills later.

I've got 28,000 in debt

 

[crova]

I almost succeeded from kidneys and liver failure, I survived because someone found me too early.
Poison did some damage to my heart, but I cant recall details. I remember they recorded my heart action and they were not happy.
Poison get to my brain too so they suspect brain damage, they did neurological and cognitive tests on me. But I was fine then.
Today I believe my early onset of Alzheimer could be indirect result of my botched CTB when I was 16.

 

[TheCrow]

Hey, sad to hear that. Horrible experience.

I can walk again normaly after 2 Years. In this 2 Years I had to use a peroneus rail (hope that is the right name in english). I have a contracture in my great toe, but it is not that bad. Sorry to hear that you have this in leg&foot.

My Compartment-Syndrome was a result of a rhabdomyolysis caused by the Morphine OD. I think we have had the same shit.

Oh, thank god you can walk. I'm thinking that means you used a cane. Did your rhabdomyolysis cause you to go into kidney failure? Yes, same shit! I hope you are doing a little better now.

 

[areflection]

Just curious. Wondering if someone here has suffered permanent or temporary damage from an attempt, and how was it.

In my case, nothing more than some bruises in my neck.

still being alive.. probably the worst damage.

 

[Crimsonskye]

No damages thankfully but ended up in a psych ward for 2 months

 

[chrijo]

Oh, thank god you can walk. I'm thinking that means you used a cane. Did your rhabdomyolysis cause you to go into kidney failure? Yes, same shit! I hope you are doing a little better now.

Yes, i had an massive kidney failure with blood poisening and in case of that an sepsis with horrible hallucinations. I have seen things, no words would describe what i see :D

I hope you are doing better too. This experience is absolutly traumatic. I feel with you..

 

[ManWithNoName]

I have not - but as of yet I have not carried out self deliverance. I am trying to gather as much info on the methods and success rate, risks, what's involved etc, as this is something I want to do only once, and not fuck it up.

My thanks go out to all on this thread who share their experiences in their failed attempts.

 

[PsychoPyro]

Brain damage due to anticholinergic poisoning. Tried to take 610mg of Diphenhydramine and get stranded in -20F weather in the woods.