Have you ever tried and failed? what were the consequences?

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Just the title...

I am thinking about the physical consequences of a failed suicide attempt. I've only seen/read about this three times: someone's blood vessels burst (temporary) in their face from being found during a hanging attempt; a woman's eyes permanently twitch from ODing on Benadryl; and a man wrote vaguely about becoming disabled from a pill overdose.

I have no idea what the consequences might be from trying to poison myself (Cerbera odollam seeds) and failing. I might lose my hair (telogen effluvium) a few months later, from the shock to my system, since I am prone to hair loss. That's already very scary to me.

Any experiences to share about this?

 

[Lizzie S.]

I've tried hanging myself and heroin oding. Hanging myself didn't come with any consequences other than breaking my computer because the hook ripped out the ceiling immediately and I just landed on my bed, but the heroin overdose has left me with a lot of scars, pneumonia, and generally feeling horrible (I throw up, get frequent migraines, and honestly kind of feel like I'm dying and just lethargic but even worse.) While before my suicidality was for other reasons, now the reason is that I'm feeling this way. I'm very, very scared of failing again.

 

[windingdown]

I've tried hanging myself and heroin oding. Hanging myself didn't come with any consequences other than breaking my computer because the hook ripped out the ceiling immediately and I just landed on my bed, but the heroin overdose has left me with a lot of scars, pneumonia, and generally feeling horrible (I throw up, get frequent migraines, and honestly kind of feel like I'm dying and just lethargic but even worse.) While before my suicidality was for other reasons, now the reason is that I'm feeling this way. I'm very, very scared of failing again.

That sounds so terrible. I'm sorry you feel so dreadful after the heroin overdose. It must be really hard. That's the sort of thing I wonder about, because I haven't encountered many personal stories of what happens when things don't work - what's the aftermath that people have to live with.

I feel like if I failed, I would have ruined my body anyway (from 1 or more failed poisonings), so I would just keep trying new, more risky methods, till my body just gave up. But in practice, who wants to live with escalating disability and pain?

I have never made an attempt yet and I take quite good care of myself - I always have. I'm very healthy. I'm afraid that a failure would turn into a commitment to really disable myself. I've never been someone who's disregarded my physical well-being that way. Oh, weighing risks and rewards...

 

[MEoDP]

I've tried hanging myself and heroin oding. Hanging myself didn't come with any consequences other than breaking my computer because the hook ripped out the ceiling immediately and I just landed on my bed, but the heroin overdose has left me with a lot of scars, pneumonia, and generally feeling horrible (I throw up, get frequent migraines, and honestly kind of feel like I'm dying and just lethargic but even worse.) While before my suicidality was for other reasons, now the reason is that I'm feeling this way. I'm very, very scared of failing again.

Returning to this topic,do you think there was a possibility that the heroin you bought was laced with something dangerous? we know how greedy drug dealers tend to cut their drug with other shit,and then there are those so sick headed that they'd cut it with something that could harm the user.

 

[PatKat]

Just the title...

I am thinking about the physical consequences of a failed suicide attempt. I've only seen/read about this three times: someone's blood vessels burst (temporary) in their face from being found during a hanging attempt; a woman's eyes permanently twitch from ODing on Benadryl; and a man wrote vaguely about becoming disabled from a pill overdose.

I have no idea what the consequences might be from trying to poison myself (Cerbera odollam seeds) and failing. I might lose my hair (telogen effluvium) a few months later, from the shock to my system, since I am prone to hair loss. That's already very scary to me.

Any experiences to share about this?

After my first attempt crashing a car into a wall at 75 MPH i now have titanium in my skull and face , trach scar, and back and neck issues. After my 2nd attempt I am not sure I go to neuro on sept 20th to find out.

 

[medusa]

Just the title...

I am thinking about the physical consequences of a failed suicide attempt. I've only seen/read about this three times: someone's blood vessels burst (temporary) in their face from being found during a hanging attempt; a woman's eyes permanently twitch from ODing on Benadryl; and a man wrote vaguely about becoming disabled from a pill overdose.

I have no idea what the consequences might be from trying to poison myself (Cerbera odollam seeds) and failing. I might lose my hair (telogen effluvium) a few months later, from the shock to my system, since I am prone to hair loss. That's already very scary to me.

Any experiences to share about this?

before you do this-please do your research, there have been many failed plant suicides here. I know nothing about your plant of choice, but someone posted a website here with infos on different plants...I dunno where it was...but yeah, read some failed cases here so be sure of what you are doing.

 

[MEoDP]

As for me,no attempts so far,though I've been tempted to multiple times in my life. I don't want to risk screwing up and making my situation worse,so I'll do it only when the best opportunity presents itself to me and I'm failing at life.

 

[bigj75]

fuck that's scary.

 

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After my first attempt crashing a car into a wall at 75 MPH i now have titanium in my skull and face , trach scar, and back and neck issues. After my 2nd attempt I am not sure I go to neuro on sept 20th to find out.

OUCH! God, I am so sorry. I can't even imagine what that must be like.

 

[windingdown]

before you do this-please do your research, there have been many failed plant suicides here. I know nothing about your plant of choice, but someone posted a website here with infos on different plants...I dunno where it was...but yeah, read some failed cases here so be sure of what you are doing.

Thank you for your caring! I've done quite a lot of research on it - I think I've read all available/accessible toxicology reports, articles, personal experiences, and factual information about the plant and poisoning with it. I am still frightened, given the uncertainty. I don't want to disable myself in some way, nor lose my hair. There's nothing in the literature to suggest that it messes you up long term though, if it doesn't kill you...

 

[lost illusions]

Dam, I get here wanting to put down my mistakes. I realized I'm not ready. Sorry guys but it shouldn't take 48 minutes to get out this much

 

[nuclearsnake]

No physical consequences but I got put in the loony bin both times which was fucking retarded (I have no idea how these people think that keeping me trapped somewhere for a while will help the suicidal thoughts I've had since I'm 12). I did get out rather quickly though but loony bins are fucking horrible.

I'm sure that if it ever happens again they won't let me go so easily, not with two failed attempts under my belt and a lifelong history of being mentally fucked up. So I have to make sure that the next one is going to be the final one.

 

[Hanger]

I hanged myself (full suspension) and passed out, but was saved. My only problems where pain in my neck 2 weeks after hanging and problems with swallowing. But 2 weeks after my hanging there was no pain left. I knew somebody that tried pills and destroyed her stomach with it and lost her hair and got problems with her eyes. Then she tried CO with a grill. Since that she had permanent headache, problems with her circulation andcan´t concentrate anymore. She also wasn´t able to go more than about 100-200 metres, then she lost her balance and fall down like a little child. After that she azhnged herself and suceeded, hope she rests in peace now.

 

[lost illusions]

No physical consequences but I got put in the loony bin both times which was fucking retarded (I have no idea how these people think that keeping me trapped somewhere for a while will help the suicidal thoughts I've had since I'm 12). I did get out rather quickly though but loony bins are fucking horrible.

I'm sure that if it ever happens again they won't let me go so easily, not with two failed attempts under my belt and a lifelong history of being mentally fucked up. So I have to make sure that the next one is going to be the final one.

Same here. I just hope when I go, no one is around. I don't want collateral damage following me

 

[windingdown]

I hanged myself (full suspension) and passed out, but was saved. My only problems where pain in my neck 2 weeks after hanging and problems with swallowing. But 2 weeks after my hanging there was no pain left. I knew somebody that tried pills and destroyed her stomach with it and lost her hair and got problems with her eyes. Then she tried CO with a grill. Since that she had permanent headache, problems with her circulation andcan´t concentrate anymore. She also wasn´t able to go more than about 100-200 metres, then she lost her balance and fall down like a little child. After that she azhnged herself and suceeded, hope she rests in peace now.

Wow, this girl's experience makes me feel like hanging is the much better option. I know it has a much higher success rate. I feel like it would require more courage on my part. With an OD (poisoning is my current method), you can at least just swallow things down quickly, and leave the rest to fate.

 

[Hanger]

I depends on what you take. But here in europe it´s not possible to die from pills you can get on the legal way (like sleeping pills), except your body is week because of heart problems or similar things. A person I know, that works in a factory that produces pills, told me, that in europe pills have to contains substances that makeyou puke them out if you take too much.

 

[lost illusions]

I depends on what you take. But here in europe it´s not possible to die from pills you can get on the legal way (like sleeping pills), except your body is week because of heart problems or similar things. A person I know, that works in a factory that produces pills, told me, that in europe pills have to contains substances that makeyou puke them out if you take too much.

The pills I had did the same thing. Maybe it was the glycol. The added stress didn't help. Idk

 

[lost illusions]

My biggest consequence was accepting failure. Not for what I did but to myself

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

twisting in the rain i hung,
bleeding cut more than twice
drugs of plenty . nothing has yet to kill me

 

[Hanger]

May I ask you what went wrong with your hanging?

 

[lost illusions]

My biggest consequence was accepting failure. Not for what I did but to myself

Pain I can deal with. Physically fighting for a lost cause, lets get bloody. A mental challenge of self, I haven't figured that out yet. But I do know its best for everyone if I go

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

frantic for rel

May I ask you what went wrong with your hanging?

frantic for relief i failed from not planing well

 

[lost illusions]

My next attempt will be to hang with sleep aid and picture of my best friend so I stay calm

 

[blurr21]

How did drowning work out for you??

 

[blurr21]

Attempted*

 

[Clover]

Memory loss. Trauma.

 

[MissLisa]

I depends on what you take. But here in europe it´s not possible to die from pills you can get on the legal way (like sleeping pills), except your body is week because of heart problems or similar things. A person I know, that works in a factory that produces pills, told me, that in europe pills have to contains substances that makeyou puke them out if you take too much.

You can die from pills in Europe but take some good prescription anti sickness tablets first or better yet the injection

 

[MissLisa]

One of my biggest fears is failing, I put many hours into research. Needs to be my only and final attempt (success)

 

[sky7]

I have permanent tinnitus from an aspirin overdose over 10 years ago. Since then my ears ring constantly, and it's especially bad at night.

 

[MEoDP]

One of my biggest fears is failing, I put many hours into research. Needs to be my only and final attempt (success)

Excellent mindset.