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ForgetIExist

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Jan 31, 2026
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I keep thinking back to this suicide dream I had a few years ago. In the dream I jumped out my bedroom window to kill myself. I wasn't scared, I didn't regret the jump, and I didn't have any injuries. I think I even tried it a second time. I felt such a sense of peace about the whole thing, and I honestly felt disappointed when I woke up because I knew a fall from that height wouldn't realistically kill me, but I really wanted to do it.

I haven't had a suicide dream since, but I honestly kinda want to have one again. I just think it would be an interesting experience.
 
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find your own way to the Knife
May 1, 2024
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I actually somewhat recently had a dream of CTB by just laying in my bed while charcoal burned. They say dreams reflect your inner desires and that is probably my most ideal method, you don't have to do anything that's a strain on your SI, you can just lie there and even sleep while it burns. It was a pretty peaceful dream and it ended with me seeing a white light, that's all I remember before I woke up.
 
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lilb0wpeep

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Mar 9, 2026
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Idk if this counts a suicide "dream" but most nights the only way I can fall asleep is by planning out/imagining different scenarios in which I'm dying. And sometimes they'll turn into a dream, if I remember it. It's definitely not helping clear any 'ideation' but it's also the only thing that 1 puts me to sleep 2 helps me be okay with having to go on living. It's the thought that one day and hopefully soon, that one day I won't have to.
 
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Topaz111

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Mar 9, 2026
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A month ago or so, I shot myself in the head in a dream. I don't remember what the context of it was, but I remember bleeding out and the feeling of relief and bliss.. then I woke up and it felt so so horrible and wrong.
 
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ForgetIExist

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Jan 31, 2026
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A month ago or so, I shot myself in the head in a dream. I don't remember what the context of it was, but I remember bleeding out and the feeling of relief and bliss.. then I woke up and it felt so so horrible and wrong
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Idk if this counts a suicide "dream" but most nights the only way I can fall asleep is by planning out/imagining different scenarios in which I'm dying. And sometimes they'll turn into a dream, if I remember it. It's definitely not helping clear any 'ideation' but it's also the only thing that 1 puts me to sleep 2 helps me be okay with having to go on living. It's the thought that one day and hopefully soon, that one day I won't have to.
I do this too sometimes. I envision myself driving to an empty parking lot in the middle of the night, drinking SN, and then just laying down and chilling
 
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blush

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Mar 2, 2026
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yea i've had multiple sn dreams. kind of brainrot but it's funny
 
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blush

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Mar 2, 2026
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OMG do tell
my dreams seem to think it's a peaceful "letting go" sensation, feeling everything shutting down. i would characterize it as "impairing, but peaceful", or a sense of willful resignation and tempting peacefulness? ofc, it has no bearing on reality.
 
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voidblankmore1

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Mar 10, 2026
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Just had one like a week ago. I shot myself and felt myself on cloud 9 as everything slowly faded back into reality. I felt almost homesick thinking about it the rest of the day.
 

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