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Would you CTB with a partner?


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burninghill

burninghill

Student
Dec 2, 2025
173
Sorry for posting twice in a short period, I try not to.

I've been thinking a lot about how desperate I was to complete a double suicide last year. It's one of those things where I was so scared and doubted myself to the point where I was sure I could only do it with a partner.

The idea still really appeals to me, honestly. It would have to be someone I'd known for a long time. Or at least felt really close to. No stranger.

I met someone who was really eager to do it with me, with anyone. They'd partaken in a previous double suicide attempt where their partner had died, they just wanted someone to hold them while they did it. They had only just recovered when we met.

Our methods were too different and I knew I couldn't offer them that kind of support. Their attempt date was October 30th and my second attempt was November 1st. I still don't know if they lived. I think about it a lot.

The closer and closer I got to having an actual partner to commit suicide with, the more I realised it wasn't for me, or maybe the people I met weren't for me.

What're your thoughts on double suicides/ suicide partners?
 
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Lov3

Lov3

Amor(Autistic)
Dec 24, 2025
381
I almost did it with my ex, I think it's difficult for me to do it with another person, it requires immense trust in the other person.There's always a chance that person might want to spare you, or even give up.
 
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Samira_Hura

Samira_Hura

Member
Jan 6, 2026
18
I think it can be comforting. If you commit suicide alone, you'll find yourself in a pro-life world until the last moment when you decide to do it, and you'll be alone with the thoughts of pro-life people ricocheting around in your head. If, on the other hand, you have a partner, you can also decide to spend your last days alone with them, and then the conversations are definitely not pro-life and therefore tend to normalize suicide. This can make things much easier, but it's subjective. There are definitely people who prefer to do everything alone than those who prefer having company. Group suicides also exist, and the dynamics are even more different. I truly believe it's something subjective that should be respected, because we all have different sensitivities.
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Wizard
Nov 26, 2025
632
Just like you, I would also do it with the right person. I have someone I've known for quite some time whose date may be coming up.But I can't accompany them yet since I need to be around as long as my mother is still alive.
 
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Afterglow

Afterglow

the best geoguessr player ever
Feb 22, 2025
373
I had a plan like that at one point as well. It was supposed to be in October of last year, but unfortunately she ended up taking her own life well before that date we set. I still miss her, and I still wish we could have gone out together.
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,823
Tbh when I searched for methods I thought there might be people in my shoes looking for the same information, so my search extended to suicide pacts which brought me to this site. But since joining and finding SN, I prefer to go solo. I don't see myself planning to ctb with someone else unless circumstances change drastically.
 
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singingcrow

singingcrow

Student
Jul 7, 2024
173
I had a plan like that at one point as well. It was supposed to be in October of last year, but unfortunately she ended up taking her own life well before that date we set. I still miss her, and I still wish we could have gone out together.
I am so sorry🫂💔
Sorry for posting twice in a short period, I try not to.

I've been thinking a lot about how desperate I was to complete a double suicide last year. It's one of those things where I was so scared and doubted myself to the point where I was sure I could only do it with a partner.

The idea still really appeals to me, honestly. It would have to be someone I'd known for a long time. Or at least felt really close to. No stranger.

I met someone who was really eager to do it with me, with anyone. They'd partaken in a previous double suicide attempt where their partner had died, they just wanted someone to hold them while they did it. They had only just recovered when we met.

Our methods were too different and I knew I couldn't offer them that kind of support. Their attempt date was October 30th and my second attempt was November 1st. I still don't know if they lived. I think about it a lot.

The closer and closer I got to having an actual partner to commit suicide with, the more I realised it wasn't for me, or maybe the people I met weren't for me.

What're your thoughts on double suicides/ suicide partners?
as much as I like the idea of it

I think suicide should be a personal thing
 
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unstabledolly

unstabledolly

:<
Oct 17, 2025
2
its something ive fantasised about for years. i thought that once i found a partner we would both be on the same page with it and do it together. but i ended up dating someone who is completely opposed to the idea of suicide. im too scared to do it on my own and i want someone to hold me through it, but i guess ive resigned myself to the fact that im gonna have to go through with it on my own afterall.
 
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left0vers

left0vers

Hope is delusion.
Feb 23, 2026
92
To me, knowing that someone else is beside me, doing the same thing, would alleviate the anxiety of going. They support me, they understand me, and they'll help if something doesn't work out right away.

And if it's somebody I know closely, and our method is painless and clean, then it's just so nice and touching. Imagine your last moment being an embrace. That's wonderful.
 
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imitoto

imitoto

Member
Mar 29, 2025
19
I think it would be nice to go with someone but I also want to listen to my own music. Maybe virtually is better?
 
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joey2424

joey2424

Member
Nov 2, 2025
99
I had wanted this in the past. My main concern is the idea of surviving the attempt and my partner does not. This sounds very traumatic and I wonder if I would have to speak to police? Just awful. In theory though, it would be ideal to not have to be alone. The closer I get to ctb, the more sad I am about what my final moments will look like (alone, fearful).
 
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zoftchan

zoftchan

Member
Feb 9, 2026
24
I would want to but I don't really have anyone who wants to
 
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Happy Cat

Happy Cat

Hopeless romantic
Dec 9, 2025
121
I am desperate enough to do it with almost anyone. I have my own reasons for not wanting to do it alone
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,263
I'd possibly consider it with someone who I was very close to- family or friend- if we were both sure.
 
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dreaming

dreaming

sleepy
Feb 11, 2026
125
I think I'd like that if I ever found someone I felt completely comfortable with who was also wanted to do it.
Which I think would be hard to come by for me.
It would be nice, I don't want to be alone if/when I do it, but it doesn't feel very likely for me.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,945
I do not want the complications of having another person involved. I am a loner and have absolutely no problem dying alone. I would prefer it.
 
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Gustav Hartmann

Gustav Hartmann

Enlightened
Aug 28, 2021
1,348
I had a suicide-partner; we wanted to hang ourselves together, planned everything meticulously, and prepared everything. The problem was that he wanted me to hang him first, and I simply couldn't do that. Finally, he lost patience and hanged himself from "our" tree last May.
 
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purpp37

purpp37

Purpp
Oct 28, 2025
46
Everyone has backed out. I was always the one who was most willing, everyone else was too much of a pussy to go through with it despite me trying to help them.
 
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yuri77

yuri77

Misanthrope
Mar 21, 2026
46
I don't want to be selfish and take someone's life just because I want to die so I don't think I could ever do something like that.
 
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TheTwelthRootOfTwo

TheTwelthRootOfTwo

Uccidimi, Addesso!
Mar 16, 2026
419
Sorry for posting twice in a short period, I try not to.

I've been thinking a lot about how desperate I was to complete a double suicide last year. It's one of those things where I was so scared and doubted myself to the point where I was sure I could only do it with a partner.

The idea still really appeals to me, honestly. It would have to be someone I'd known for a long time. Or at least felt really close to. No stranger.

I met someone who was really eager to do it with me, with anyone. They'd partaken in a previous double suicide attempt where their partner had died, they just wanted someone to hold them while they did it. They had only just recovered when we met.

Our methods were too different and I knew I couldn't offer them that kind of support. Their attempt date was October 30th and my second attempt was November 1st. I still don't know if they lived. I think about it a lot.

The closer and closer I got to having an actual partner to commit suicide with, the more I realised it wasn't for me, or maybe the people I met weren't for me.

What're your thoughts on double suicides/ suicide partners?
I voted "under the right circumstances", but am leaning toward a solid no. The reason I said "right circumstances" is because I could imagine maybe if it was my spouse, or a close friend that I've known for a long time. But that would be it.

I do not like the idea. I would feel like I'm committing murder. I have no qualms with a person having a right to kill themselves, but I can't actively take part in watching them do it. I. Just. Can't.
 
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Asya

Asya

See you at the curtain call.
Mar 17, 2026
180
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delinquentsandwich

delinquentsandwich

Member
Jan 23, 2026
30
I've thought a lot about it and think it would be like.. romantic? not quite the word
to finally be at peace with someone else sounds wonderful
I do not want to die alone but I have consigned myself to dying alone
very specific criteria have to be met so it's impossible for this to happen for me
 
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knowledgeseeking

knowledgeseeking

Experienced
Apr 5, 2025
247
I've thought it would be comforting to have someone with me but it's not something I could ask anyone I know and everyone here is very secretive of there location so no chance in finding someone here.
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

I’m going to die in 2026 (2006-2026) 🔜
Mar 15, 2025
680
I would only do it with a romantic partner.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,254
I wish for a compatible ctb partner
 
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liquid jen

liquid jen

Blind painting, my body's a disease
Sep 9, 2025
101
I think It would realistically be the only way for me to go and be at peace. Otherwise I wouldn't be able to push myself to go through with it and be at ease. It would have to be someone I have an already established relationship with. I often fantasize about this moment. I want to die in someone else's arms so bad. That's true bliss.
 
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fightclub17

fightclub17

Hopefully ctb on the 9th of April
Mar 3, 2026
250
Are there any downsides to double suicides? Legally?
 
TheTwelthRootOfTwo

TheTwelthRootOfTwo

Uccidimi, Addesso!
Mar 16, 2026
419
Are there any downsides to double suicides? Legally?
If you aid and abet in any way, yes. But simply being present, I don't think so (someone with more legal knowledge can correct me if I'm wrong). But it becomes messy if you try the same methods, such as CO, and one of you dies and the other doesn't. That could get sketchy real fast.
 
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fightclub17

fightclub17

Hopefully ctb on the 9th of April
Mar 3, 2026
250
If you aid and abet in any way, yes. But simply being present, I don't think so (someone with more legal knowledge can correct me if I'm wrong). But it becomes messy if you try the same methods, such as CO, and one of you dies and the other doesn't. That could get sketchy real fast.
Is a 'suicide pact' considered aiding/abetting? I'm sorry for all the questions. There's so many pacts going around on here and genuinely want to know.
 
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TheTwelthRootOfTwo

TheTwelthRootOfTwo

Uccidimi, Addesso!
Mar 16, 2026
419
Is a 'suicide pact' considered aiding/abetting? I'm sorry for all the questions. There's so many pacts going around on here and genuinely want to know.
I'm not sure what all the legalese are. Ido know it's a sticky situation if one or both survives.
 
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